Author: Midnight Demon

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My barber’s sister died so I brought him his favorite dish that I make. I got my haircut today, bald cut to support my friends fighting cancer. Now I just plan on growing my hair out but that could change if I get annoyed with my hair.

I am feeling so wiped out. I tried to nap when I came home but I guess the four shot of espresso prevented that from happening. I just couldn’t turn my brain off. I just rested for about an hour and a half. I got up when I got a second text message. I couldn’t lay there anymore. I was getting hungry, too.

I heated up the chili cornbread I made for my barber. It was so good. I still have a little leftover for tomorrow. It is one of my favorite dishes. I had gotten the recipe from Trisha Yearwood when I was watching her program on the Food Network. It is really easy to make.

I started to have nerve pain in my thigh on the way home. My thigh keeps twitching. I don’t know why it is annoyed, though I have done a lot of walking this week. The nice part was that I didn’t experience palpitations while doing so. I feel kind of depressed today for no reason in particular. I just feel run down. It just started to rain so I think that is why my leg is hurting me. Hope it doesn’t flare up the CRPS. I could use a break from that kind of pain.

Next week is not going to be as busy. I just have two appointments and they are virtual so I don’t have to leave the house. I have been working on things for therapy on Mon. I bought little notebooks to keep track of the skills. It is going to be a challenge to actually work on them when not in therapy. I still am trying to get through the workbook. I haven’t had time this week to read much of it, though I tried. I am too tired today to read it. I am giving myself the rest of the day to relax and rest.

Insomnia strikes again and I am exhausted

Insomnia hit. I didn’t go to bed till around 0700. I slept for an hour before I woke up to pee. Took my morning meds and then went back to sleep for a few hours. I then had some coffee and a Belvita biscuit before heading off to the grocery store to finish getting my ingredients. I forgot to buy onions that were premade. But my mother had a chopper thing so I was able to dice them up. I had place an order on Amazon Fresh for some ingredients and milk for my mother as I was going to have difficulty carrying a gallon of milk home on the bus.

I tried to nap when I came home from the grocery store but I couldn’t sleep. Then it was dinner time and my mother made fish. I made a spinach salad and had that and the fish and potatoes that she made. I then got an alert that my amazon was shipped so I started cooking. I just got finished now. I am totally exhausted. I just hope I can sleep tonight and not wake up at midnight again. I have to leave the house around 1030 tomorrow to be at the barber’s shop by 1130. I have to look at the schedule as I don’t know what time the bus will be here. I was going to let my hair grow but I am going to get a bald cut again as my friend in South Africa wife has leukemia. Poor woman battled through breast cancer and now she has this.

I am going to take my night meds and go to bed. I won’t be doing any reading today. I am so fricken exhausted. I found out today that if you pay $12K to Switzerland, you can die an assisted death. I am going to start saving my money.

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I woke up around 1230 feeling hungry so I had something to eat. Then I stayed up for a bit and the next thing I knew I wasn’t tired anymore. The pain flare caused insomnia. I was up half the night. I waited until my check came in my bank account and then I started paying bills. I am now broke. I half didn’t want to go into Boston today so I tried to change my appointment to virtual but I didn’t get through on the phone so I said fuck it and caught the next bus out to the station.

The appointment was good. I got the medication I wanted and I asked her about the CRPS and bone scan and she said to contact my neuro about it. So I did while I was waiting for the train to come. I had walked to Whole Foods to get some spices that I need for a dish I am making for my barber. He told me last night that his sister died that day. I feel so bad for him. So I am making his favorite dish to help cheer him up some. I did a lot of walking after my appointment.

After my appointment, I went to the pharmacy to pick up my meds. There was a line and people can be so damn stupid about their meds. It just annoys me when they go and they want to pick up but it isn’t ready because there are no refills left. I hear it over and over again every time I am in line. Just drives me crazy. My meds were ready by the time I was called to the register. I only had to pay for one of the meds. I finally met my $300 deductible so now I don’t have to pay for my meds the rest of the year.

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I started the blog yesterday but didn’t finish it because I was tired. It is raining today and I am aching. I also just want to stay in bed and sleep. I saw my psychiatrist. Things are going well. He was my last appointment for the week. I am now free.

Because today is raining, I plan on going to the grocery store tomorrow to pick up the ingredients I need for the dish I plan on making. I just hope I have enough energy to make it. There is a chance it could rain tomorrow too but I am hoping to avoid it. I will take a cab home if I need to.