Category: depression

Jumble of stuff

I have been feeling down all day. I have had a headache since last Thurs. I messaged my neuro when I got up today and through my pcp, she got back to me. I will be started on steroids soon as the pharmacy fills it. Unfortunately, they had to close early today for some reason. I hope the prescription will be ready tomorrow. I want to get some ice cream sandwiches when I pick it up.

I wanted to go give a urine sample today but I couldn’t get going. I let the dog on the porch and she was happily chewing her toy I didn’t want to bring her in. By the time she came in, it was getting kind of late and I had no motivation to do anything. I just wanted to rest my head. I wasn’t able to nap though. I was too anxious. I managed to brush my teeth after I had my coffee. I wanted cookies. This is another month where I don’t place an order for groceries. I have $100 left but I need it for books and meds. The professors for my counseling class and history class have not put in their book requirements. I feel like emailing them. I just got a book advance from the bursar’s office so that helps. I don’t know how to use it though.

My CRPS ankle is acting up. It has been bothering most of the week. I hate when my head and ankle hurt at the same time. Ankle is always worse than my head. I sent my therapist a message to see if I can see her Fri.

Sox are winning right now. They are playing the White Sox. They have won like 6 or 7 games straight. They are on a streak again. Just got to keep hoping the skankees lose so we can move up in the wild card.

More headaches and depression

I had another headache today. My neuro got back to me but it was the nurse who just asked a bunch of questions. Now I am waiting for the doctor to get back to me. I feel miserable and don’t want to do anything. Tomorrow I am supposed to go with my cousins to south of Boston to see my other cousin that lives down there. I don’t want to so I canceled. I also have a UTI so I don’t want to be in a car for 45 mins with urinary urgency. That would not be good. I have been trying to increase my fluids. I really didn’t drink today. I just had my coffee and some Powerade.

I couldn’t sleep last night. I think I slept two hours and then I had to go pee. Then that was the end of it. I was tossing and turning the rest of the night. I got hungry but I had reflux, which is weird. I drank an ensure. That seemed to help. I was in pain last night with my damn ankle. I had a damn headache and my CRPS ankle was flaring. I was able to sleep a couple of hours in the morning but I kept waking up to pee.

I slept in the afternoon for a little bit. I feel wicked tired. I am going to go to bed. I talked with my cousin for a little bit. Tomorrow I got to go to the hospital to drop off a urine sample. I hope I don’t have any pee accidents while I am out.

Painful day

I woke up before 9. I couldn’t go back to sleep so decided to stay up. I had my coffee. Bitch sister said she was going to clean the kitchen and I was happy as the kitchen has been full of her crap for weeks now. Instead, she organizes the pots and pans cabinet. If my stuff was on the kitchen table for weeks, they would be in my room by now. I am so pissed.

I still got this mother fucking headache that refuses to go away. I thought about going to the ED again but all they can really do is give me fluids and a neuro exam. Maybe some ibuprofen and Tylenol like I have been taking, too. I am going to message my neuro tomorrow. It is making me so damn tired. But I am able to listen to music today.

Everyone in the house was using the bathroom when I wanted to shave so I put it off. I will do it tomorrow when no one is home. I haven’t showered either. I might do that tonight. I think I might have a UTI again as I have urgency, burning and pain when I pee. I must have been to the bathroom 20 times already just peeing a little bit. I took some pyridium. I don’t know what happened to the bottle I had so had to order another one. Luckily, it just got delivered so I am feeling a little bit better.

I made a pizza for lunch/dinner. It made the kitchen really hot as it was hot outside. I was sweating while I was eating it. I had two big cups of iced tea. But I couldn’t finish the second slice. I saved the remaining slices. Yesterday I didn’t eat at all. I just have no appetite. I don’t care if I eat or not. I know it is because I just took the weight loss drug and it suppresses my appetite for a few days. My weight has stayed the same but while I was at my pcp’s office, my weight was up a few ounces. I wanted to cry.

I just tried again to see what books are for the fall and I got a fucking error message. Why the hell is this so damn difficult?? I am so mad. I am going to try and see if I can save at least $150 for books. The one for the gender class is like $40 and is a paperback. I need to get some more notebooks. And I need refills for one of my pens. I also decided to get some more pens because it has been a while since I last bought myself some.

I am tired. Sox game is at 730pm tonight. I am so glad I can listen at a decent time. I have been going to bed around 9 the past few nights and waking up before 9 but I wake up a few times to pee so it’s not a complete sleep through night. My cousin thought they were going to lose the series and they won. I told him I will need to see it to believe it and proved him wrong. HA.