Category: depression

More headaches and depression

I had another headache today. My neuro got back to me but it was the nurse who just asked a bunch of questions. Now I am waiting for the doctor to get back to me. I feel miserable and don’t want to do anything. Tomorrow I am supposed to go with my cousins to south of Boston to see my other cousin that lives down there. I don’t want to so I canceled. I also have a UTI so I don’t want to be in a car for 45 mins with urinary urgency. That would not be good. I have been trying to increase my fluids. I really didn’t drink today. I just had my coffee and some Powerade.

I couldn’t sleep last night. I think I slept two hours and then I had to go pee. Then that was the end of it. I was tossing and turning the rest of the night. I got hungry but I had reflux, which is weird. I drank an ensure. That seemed to help. I was in pain last night with my damn ankle. I had a damn headache and my CRPS ankle was flaring. I was able to sleep a couple of hours in the morning but I kept waking up to pee.

I slept in the afternoon for a little bit. I feel wicked tired. I am going to go to bed. I talked with my cousin for a little bit. Tomorrow I got to go to the hospital to drop off a urine sample. I hope I don’t have any pee accidents while I am out.

Painful day

I woke up before 9. I couldn’t go back to sleep so decided to stay up. I had my coffee. Bitch sister said she was going to clean the kitchen and I was happy as the kitchen has been full of her crap for weeks now. Instead, she organizes the pots and pans cabinet. If my stuff was on the kitchen table for weeks, they would be in my room by now. I am so pissed.

I still got this mother fucking headache that refuses to go away. I thought about going to the ED again but all they can really do is give me fluids and a neuro exam. Maybe some ibuprofen and Tylenol like I have been taking, too. I am going to message my neuro tomorrow. It is making me so damn tired. But I am able to listen to music today.

Everyone in the house was using the bathroom when I wanted to shave so I put it off. I will do it tomorrow when no one is home. I haven’t showered either. I might do that tonight. I think I might have a UTI again as I have urgency, burning and pain when I pee. I must have been to the bathroom 20 times already just peeing a little bit. I took some pyridium. I don’t know what happened to the bottle I had so had to order another one. Luckily, it just got delivered so I am feeling a little bit better.

I made a pizza for lunch/dinner. It made the kitchen really hot as it was hot outside. I was sweating while I was eating it. I had two big cups of iced tea. But I couldn’t finish the second slice. I saved the remaining slices. Yesterday I didn’t eat at all. I just have no appetite. I don’t care if I eat or not. I know it is because I just took the weight loss drug and it suppresses my appetite for a few days. My weight has stayed the same but while I was at my pcp’s office, my weight was up a few ounces. I wanted to cry.

I just tried again to see what books are for the fall and I got a fucking error message. Why the hell is this so damn difficult?? I am so mad. I am going to try and see if I can save at least $150 for books. The one for the gender class is like $40 and is a paperback. I need to get some more notebooks. And I need refills for one of my pens. I also decided to get some more pens because it has been a while since I last bought myself some.

I am tired. Sox game is at 730pm tonight. I am so glad I can listen at a decent time. I have been going to bed around 9 the past few nights and waking up before 9 but I wake up a few times to pee so it’s not a complete sleep through night. My cousin thought they were going to lose the series and they won. I told him I will need to see it to believe it and proved him wrong. HA.

I got another migraine today and was so tempted to go to the ED as it’s the 3rd day in a row. But I didn’t feel like leaving the house. I am so happy my baby is home.

I got a message from my pcp this morning saying my labs were better. I might have been dehydrated or under nourished when I last had them done. It is tricky drinking fluids and eating when I don’t feel like it.

Today i had Pad Thai because one of the places that make it well is going out of business. I haven’t had it in a long time. They added vegetables to it and mushrooms. Yuck on the mushrooms. I ate half of it. I am now drinking big glasses of iced tea.

I got another migraine. Last night I got a wicked headache. It is muggy today so I think that is why. I haven’t done anything i wanted to. This headache is making me just want to lie down.

I finally figured out which fricken website to go to for my books. Unfortunately,  only one class had books. The other two didn’t. Grrrr. I have to check back. I got a thing from financial aid saying I am not registered full-time. I don’t want to be full-time. This is the first semester I am taking 3 classes. I hope I can handle it. I need one more semester with three classes in order to graduate Spring of 28. I haven’t decided which one it will be. I still need to take the 400 level psych course. That will finish off my requirements and the rest will be electives.

I woke up before 10 today and couldn’t go back to sleep. I just stayed up. I had coffee. I got it from my sister. It was a different kind of Caribou. It was good. Might order it next time I am out of coffee. I am debating going back to Starbucks. I miss it but it’s expensive. I am only having one cup a day because 2 hurts my stomach.

Sox are playing the Dodgers tonight. Game is at 10pm so I am probably not going to be up for it. My cousin thinks they will lose. We’ll see.