midnightdemons7

Feeling shitty

I didn’t sleep last night because of this stupid cold I got. I was coughing and miserable. I finally took some Nyquil around 1am. That helped and I snoozed a bit. I kept having weird dreams. I heard my sister get up for work. I waited till she came back to her room because I had to pee.

I got up really late, too late to go shopping so I asked my sister to take me to the grocery store. I literally bought three things and it was twenty bucks. I couldn’t get the cheese I wanted. I couldn’t find the ground beef so I got burgers. I wanted to make Sloppy Joes so it would last a few days for a few meals at least. Oh well. I didn’t buy Gatorade because I didn’t have the money. I will have to buy it on Friday when my check comes in. I also got to get chamomile tea. I like that when I am sick.

I am so tired. I haven’t eaten anything yet today. I don’t have much of an appetite. I am going to make a burger for dinner. I bought yogurt so I will have that in the morning. This cold is taking all my energy to stay awake.

I went downstairs to see my niece as she was visiting for a few minutes. I haven’t seen her in weeks. My sister that I am ok with said I smell. I took a shower last night so I have no idea how I smell. I didn’t sweat that much. Maybe my shirt does. I don’t know. It has been on my bed for a bit. I still need to change my sheets. Maybe I will do that tomorrow. I have no idea where to put my old laptop. It still works but is slow as fuck. I don’t want to get rid of it because it might have files I need. I am so tired of both my sisters saying I smell all the time.

I protect the family…

I have done nothing all day. I didn’t sleep well last night. I slept kind of late today. The school’s website thing came back online last night so I was forced to look at what this week is going to involve. Not much really, so that is good. I just got to read the two chapters in the book. I will get started with it tonight after my shower.

I took my beard off but didn’t shave. It’s just down to a stubble. I trimmed my mustache and eyebrows. I need to go to the grocery store as I am down to my last Gatorade bottle and only have like half a half gallon of half and half left. I will try and go tomorrow.

The lady at my insurance called me back. I think I accidently deleted her email when she sent it on Friday. Oops. She sent it again and all the therapists are out of my range. They are far away. I guess I will just be waiting for the Cambridge office to call me. In like 4 months. I still got to call the place I was seeing to see if they will still take me or I have to do intake again.

Day off

The school’s website for assignments and things was down most of the day so I decided to have a day off. I had read the webpages in the early morning as I was up and couldn’t go back to sleep. They were boring as hell.

I think I am getting a cold. I have had a cough that keeps making me gag all day. Last night my gallbladder flared up and it was still a little flared this morning. I took it easy eating most of the day. My sister made BBQ chicken and some artichoke thing. The artichoke thing was really salty. I had two pieces of chicken and was full. It was all I ate all day.

I wanted to shower but I ended up taking a nap in the afternoon. I also wanted to take my beard down some and my mustache but didn’t. My mustache hairs are all over the place. I think I got to get a comb or a brush to smooth it out. I fell asleep and woke up with the sweats. It has been warm in my room. I had a hard time getting comfortable last night because I was so warm. But it wasn’t warm enough to turn the fan on.

I got about three weeks before my group project is due. I haven’t started it. I asked the prof where to get resources and she said google, so I will start there tomorrow. I have no idea how long this has to be. I have like two parts I am writing about this psychologist’s life. Thursday I am having a zoom meeting with the group so hopefully that goes well.

I still feel so tired in the afternoon and have to nap. I know I shouldn’t because it is probably what is keeping me up in the middle of the night but I can’t help it. I just get so sleepy. My mood has sucked the past few days. The insurance lady called me but I never called her back. I will try tomorrow. I had a list of people to call today and never did it. I wish I could just email them instead.

I think I am going to take some Nyquil tonight so I am not coughing. I don’t feel sick but I just got phlegm in my throat. It doesn’t hurt or anything. I got no fevers. The nurse at my pcp’s office said that if my gallbladder pain gets worse and I am unable to eat or drink I need to go to the ED. I just wanted a referral for a surgeon so it can be done outpatient. I wanted to avoid the ED all together. Last night it was really bad. I ate different things yesterday so it is hard to say what set it off. It isn’t as bad today. Hope it stays that way.