midnightdemons7

Humid day

I had a nightmare last night so it was difficult to go back to sleep. I got up around 11. I wanted to shower and go to Starbucks to do my quiz and then pick up my meds. None of that has happened yet. I did get my migraine med delivered so I could take it. I took my quiz after reading the notes and failed. I suck at this class. Out of four quizzes, only one I have passed with an 80. I am sure my test I failed too. I think I am going to P/F this class so it doesn’t mess with my GPA. I still have to get started on the books for this class so I can write the paper.

I’ve had my AC running all day. The house is hot. I can’t open the back door because my sister took the screen door off and it’s all open now. I don’t want flies to get in the house. It’s humid in the house. I’ve been watching the puppy most of the day. I need to read psych but can’t focus. I had two cups of coffee today. I made a tuna sandwich which the pup wanted. I didn’t share with her. I kept the sandwich close to me so she wouldn’t get it. I made potatoes but not sure what I am going to do with them. I have them cooling right now.

I had some money left in my account after my bills got paid so I ordered some drinks and water. I am totally out of them. I drank the last of the water last night. I was so thirsty. Soon as the water was delivered, I filled my water bottle and drank. I did make iced tea.

I am tired and don’t feel like reading.  It is all stuff on my laptop not the book. I wish I could print out what I need to read so it wouldn’t strain my neck. I have my eye appt next week. I am hoping to get new glasses if I have a new prescription. It is tough finding glasses I like.

I can’t believe in a few months I am going to be fifty. Like WTF. I still got to find out how much my cake is going to be. I know what I want and where I want to have it made. I just got to bite the bullet and call the place. I wish they would just post their prices on their website. Isn’t that what their website is for??

Feeling down and out

I had a good sleep but I didn’t want to get up. I had a hard time getting out of bed. Not even coffee could lure me out. I just didn’t care. I thought about just reading and not getting up for coffee or eating. I wanted pancakes though. It was almost 1pm and I took my meds. I used the bathroom and played with the puppy afterward. I went into the kitchen and there were huge piles of poop. I was not happy. I cleaned it up and then washed/scrubbed my hands before making my coffee. Again I just had one cup. I thought about making another but I knew my stomach wouldn’t be able to take it. I was tired and just wanted to go back to bed.

I went upstairs and just played my game. I had some messages to respond to so I did that. I still had to pick up my meds. I will tomorrow. It was raining today and I didn’t feel like going out. I thought about taking an Uber or a Lyft but it was late and I just didn’t want to go.

I made a salad for dinner and then after I ate, I went and did some school work. I finished the chapter I needed to read. There are some notes I need to read before taking the quiz. This stuff was a little bit more understandable than the other chapters. I just hope I get a good grade on the quiz. I don’t know when the test results will be back. I still have a shit ton of psych to read. I haven’t even looked to see what exactly is due on Mon. There are usually three things due. My group is trying to get a zoom meeting but no one has responded, as usual. I looked up the guy we are to write on. He is on Wikipedia. I hope they have citations in the file. That will be easy to trace for the information that I need for the paper.

My stomach is doing ok. I talked with the nurse at my PCP’s office. I told him I already discussed things with the doc last week and would like to stay on the same dose until my stomach calms down before increasing it. I am still having stomach upset and reflux. My pcp said to take the stomach med on an empty stomach but I always do. Lately I have been taking it and then going back to sleep for a few hours so that it can work before I drink coffee. It seems to help the upset. I haven’t been needing to take an extra pill at night. I asked her if she would check my iron levels and she ordered it. She said she doesn’t need to check my pancreas enzymes so I am glad.

I feel depressed. Things are stressing me out and I have no one to talk to about them. I don’t know how long I will be on the waitlist for a therapist. Hopefully not too long. I have to go through intake. I don’t know if I will have to wait after that for a therapist. I am keeping my DMH worker’s place open in case this place doesn’t work out.

I just can’t drink with you

I have been listening to Brett Young’s 2.0 album. I love his song drink with you.

I got up later than I planned. My meds weren’t ready so I didn’t go out again today. I played with the puppy more. I found it hard to concentrate on my school work. I had one cup of coffee and my stomach felt full. I ordered lunch and now I am stuffed. I wanted pad thai but the place was closed. I had Kung Pao instead. The puppy wanted some too but I didn’t give her any. Spicy isn’t good for doggies.

I want to take a shower today but haven’t done so yet. I might do it tomorrow. I am not really feeling well today. I just feel so down. My stomach is upset. I just want to lay down. I don’t care if I sleep or not. I just don’t want to be up. I had a weird dream I gave birth to a baby. It’s weird because I never thought of being a mother before. I never wanted kids. In the dream I follow her around. She looked like me when I was a baby. I got to stop watching baby reels. It’s making want to have a baby.

I don’t know if I am going to do any Econ work today. I got brain fog. I was only able to drink one cup of coffee today. I am tired and have no energy. Tomorrow I need to get my meds. I might go to Starbucks and get a coffee or latte. I like their pumpkin cold foam cold brew. It’s tasty and not too sweet.