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So cranky today

I was up in the middle of the night again. I got an email around 330am from some journal I follow. I wanted to kick my phone across the room. I listened to my sister leaving the house for work. I figure I try to get some sleep. Then my phone text message for my psych class went off and just continued. It was like 730am! I was so pissed. I put my phone on vibrate but by then the texts stopped of course.

I managed to go back to sleep only to dream about work and clearing the tube system as well as getting problem samples. Then I dreamt I was to go to the psych ER for something. I don’t even remember why it was being suggested to me. I woke up feeling aggravated. I heard the puppy go down the stairs so I knew there was going to be some potty mess out in the hall. She peed outside my sister’s bedroom. I was not happy.

I got up around 10 but I still wasn’t awake. I went back to sleep and then had my coffee. It was 1pm. I had to do some stuff for class. I did that. The professor sent me a message saying I put the collaborations thing in the wrong spot. So I moved it to where it was supposed to be. For some reason I cannot get google docs to that folder. I can get the drive there but not the document. I am frustrated with the whole thing. I just put what I wanted to do on the document someone created.

I am hungry even though the coffee upset my stomach. I think I am going to make a grilled cheese. I have been craving one. I hate making them as I always burn one side. I suck at making them. I usually “cheat” by toasting the bread and then microwaving the cheese so it melts.

Reading and more reading

I fell asleep early last night and then woke up in the middle of the night again. I got up around 4 or 430. I read my psych and finished the chapter. It took me like two hours. I was done at 630 and I took my meds. I then tried to get back to sleep for a few hours. I managed to sleep for a bit then woke up around 1pm. I had a cup of coffee and some donuts. My sister made some rice but I didn’t have any. I wasn’t really hungry.

I went upstairs and got to work on my Econ. I read chap 6 and was like half way through when I just decided to take the test anyway. I answered the questions best I could. There was one question that was based off “class notes” but I wasn’t able to find where those notes were.

My niece texted me saying she was here and had pumpkin pie. I had finished the test and then went downstairs. The pie was more like a pudding with a crust. It was good though. My sister was making something but she wouldn’t tell me what she was making. It smelled good whatever it was. I had gone back upstairs to do my meds for the week. I put the naprosen in my night med box because I forgot to take it last night. My brother in law made pasta and sauce so I had some with some garlic bread. It was good. Now I am full. My stomach is bothering me and I have a headache. I hope the naprosen works. I am kind of dehydrated still. My urine is kind of dark. I don’t have that many gatorades left. I think I have just one 28 oz and a few 20 oz left. I have to go through my cart at Peapod because it’s over $300 and the money I was hoping to get didn’t come through. There is no way I can afford a $300 grocery bill. I think what I am going to do is have the drinks delivered and then go to a cheaper grocery store to get the other stuff I need.

I have one more thing to submit for psych and a bunch of readings to do. I don’t even know what exactly I am supposed to submit. I read the responses and it just made me more confused. I got to wait till my head feels a little better before I try and attempt it. It’s a P/F so I don’t need to submit that much for it.

I wanted to shower today but never got around to it. I will try tomorrow. I like it when no one is home.

Saturday Blog 20092025

I was up half the night again. I woke up around 1am and couldn’t go back to sleep. I read my psych text for a couple of hours. I stopped at 330 but my back was cramping and I couldn’t get comfortable. Eventually, I fell back to sleep and stayed asleep until the afternoon. I woke up sometime after 3pm. I didn’t mean to sleep that late but I was knocked out.

I got a message from my psych prof saying she couldn’t access my google doc. That I should put it on the collaborations thing on the shared student thing. So I did that and then did the first paper assignment. There is one more thing I need to “discuss” for the week but I need to finish my reading first. I haven’t even gotten to the supplemental readings she assigned. The textbook is long, about 25 pages. I have about 15 more to read.

I had salad for dinner and my stomach is upset for some reason. I took some Zofran. I have about six pills left. I think I will ask my doc for another script. She asked me on Thurs but I thought I was good. I haven’t been needing them until now. I had some reflux during the night. It was not good as acid came up and I was coughing a bit from stuff. It was so gross.

I haven’t gone back to reading my textbook. I have been procrastinating. I am tired and just don’t feel like doing anything. But I am getting behind in my reading. Tomorrow I need to read Econ and do the test. I hope I do better on the test than I did on the quiz.

Ugh Econ is hard

I read chapter 3 and was totally confused by it. Nothing made sense. I took the quiz anyway and failed. The stupid graph tools didn’t work and I had no idea what I was doing anyway. Now I got to read chapt 6 and then take the test. I think this class is going to be a pass/fail.

I woke up early and decided to go back to sleep which was a mistake. I was tired and didn’t want to get out of bed but I did. I went to Starbucks and had my latte. Then as a treat, I ordered my snickers latte before I left. I had a total of eight shots of espresso so I am wired right now. I am going to read some psych. I will finish Econ tomorrow. I can’t read anymore of the confusing stuff. It’s hurting my brain.

I didn’t want to deal with puppy potty stuff today but unfortunately, she peed under the kitchen table and I had to clean it up. I can’t stand the smell of her pee. I think I am allergic to it as I sneeze all the time when I smell it. Weird. I don’t know what I am going to have for dinner. I might make a burger but I really want a salad. I have been feeling kind of dizzy today but I think it’s because I am dehydrated. I sweated so much yesterday. I also have been retaining urine. I drank a lot last night and didn’t go to the bathroom until this morning. It was more than 12 hours since I last voided. I had a huge latte and half a latte so far and a huge glass of water and have not voided yet. I am so thirsty though so I think I just need fluids. Today was wicked hot but I dressed appropriately. The sun felt good. I think I tanned a bit.

The new therapy place sent me intake forms. It took forever for me to figure out how to sign because if a field wasn’t filled out, you can’t sign the document. I fucking hate that shit. But I figured it out. Now I just got to wait for an appt, which hopefully will be next week. I stressed I wanted psychodynamic therapy for depression. I hope there is a therapist that still does this.

I am feeling nauseous right now so I took a Zofran. I haven’t eaten anything since like 1. I still don’t know if I am going to have a salad or a burger or both. Last night I was pretty hungry but only stopped at eating a burger and a donut. My stomach has been okay the past few days. I had my shot of the weight loss drug today so I hope my body is adjusting to the new dose. I don’t feel anything other than the nausea and being super tired. But I think my being tired is because I was out the last three days in a row. My foot is yelling at me. My pcp put me on naprosen. I need to eat something to take it as it can upset my stomach. I don’t need an upset stomach. My pcp said I am doing well weight wise on the drug as according to my med record I lost six pounds. It’s really been more than that as I was heavier when I was in the psych unit.

I need to read my psych tonight. Game will be playing but I am not optimistic about them winning. They seemed to have lost their mojo and the bullpen has been terrible. I don’t think we will make it to the playoffs but we are still in the race. Haven’t been eliminated yet. Probably in a week as there are only like 10 games left. Hard to believe Sept is almost over. I am so sad.