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Today was my sister’s birthday. I had a hard time sleeping. I was struggling to stay awake during the party. I ate good. I think I’m going to have the same kind of party for my birthday.

I got some school stuff done. I ordered my groceries to be delivered tomorrow afternoon. I see my pcp in the morning. I might go to the library and return my book I borrowed. They were due last week.

I still feel off and my blood pressure is high now. I’ve been listening to evermore by Taylor the past few days. Just how I am feeling. It’s a mellow song.

I’ve been playing with the puppy when I come downstairs. I love her so much. She is my baby. I had to clean up her mess in the kitchen today. Her daddy is a fuck and doesn’t do it anymore. I am not happy about it.

I’ve been feeling depressed most of the day. Just stressing over finances and stuff. I still haven’t heard from the therapist place. Sucks not having a therapist.

Sunday fun days

I had a  good sleep finally despite waking up a few times to pee. I didn’t drink anything yet still had to pee. I don’t get it but yay, functioning kidneys. I took my BP today and it was high. I haven’t taken my blood pressure meds since Thurs (on advice of my pcp). I feel ok otherwise. I have been trying to drink more fluids to stay hydrated. I only had one cup of coffee today.

I made sloppy joes for my lunch/dinner. It was good. I have leftovers for tomorrow. I did my meds. I also spent a lot of time with the puppy. I gave her carrots and treats. She wanted some of my lunch but I didn’t share.

I have been doing school work which has been slow going as I am not motivated. I finished one thing that is due tomorrow and my group is working on the paper that is also due tomorrow. I just have a discussion thing to do based on a reading that bored me to tears. I have another reading to do plus textbook chapters. I will start the textbook tomorrow.

My nose is running today. I think this cold or allergies won’t go away. I need to take a shower. I might do that before bed so that the exhaustion lets me sleep. It is kind of cold today but I had to open the back door because my sister hates the smell of meat cooking. She says it smells awful. She has had weird smells since she had Covid a few years ago.

I see my pcp and psychiatrist this week. I also get my 2^nd shingles shot this week. I hope it doesn’t make me sick like it did last time. I got to put my grocery order in tomorrow and I am worried that I am not going to have enough money for shit this month. I am going to make a withdrawal so that I can give my sisters some money for their birthday. Tomorrow is my baby sister’s birthday. Hopefully I can go out and get a few cards. My mother always used to have them around. She’d get them at the dollar store. I hate buying them because they aren’t cheap. And then they just get tossed so your spending money to put in the trash.

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Last night I was not feeling well and went to the ED. My blood pressure was really low and my labs were funky. After giving me three liters of fluid, my blood pressure didn’t change and my labs were still messed up. They wanted to admit me. I didn’t sleep a wink all night. I tried to sleep but it was impossible with the noise of the ED and the blood pressure cuff going off every 15 minutes. In the morning, my BP was better and my labs were back to normal. I could go home. I was glad.

I came home and had a cup of coffee. It was so good. Then I went up to my room. It took forever for me to nap. I finally went to sleep some time after 230 for an hour and then again between 4 and 530. My sister made supper so I didn’t have to cook. I had my brother in law buy me some ground beef so I can make Manwich.

I have been trying to get myself to do my school work but I am so tired. I have no idea what is going on with the group project. The professor sent out a message yesterday basically saying our presentation was crap. It is due Mon so I don’t think we have time to fix it. I am still working on the paper assignment. I did the group stuff and there is nothing more I can do for it. I honestly don’t care.

I am still wicked tired. I have been hungry all day though everything I have eaten has bothered my stomach. I didn’t have my normal stomach pill this morning. They gave me another PPI. It doesn’t work for me as well as my pill does but I don’t think I can take it till tomorrow. My sister had a steak and cheese but I am still hungry. Think I will have a PB&J.