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Semester starts today

I woke up a few times during the night. I was able to fall asleep after my sister left for work. Then I woke up to my med alarm. I had to pee so I got up and decided I might as well stay up as the semester begins today. I needed coffee first so after I took my meds and played my game for a bit, I went downstairs.

The puppy was in bed with her daddy. She had peed under the kitchen table. I cleaned it up. My sister made pumpkin bread and I had a slice. It was good with chocolate chips. I had two cups of coffee. Then I went to get my laptop. I saw some stuff for Econ class and became overwhelmed. I have to do a graph and there is no help with it. I am going to have to google it as I don’t remember how to do it. It has been a long time since I had to do stuff like that. I have two chapters to read for that class and an assignment. Next week will be quizzes on the chapters. The psych class released the trauma article I need to read. She also had a few assignments that are due on Monday. I have decided that Tues and Thurs will be days I will work on psych and the other days I will work on Econ. Both classes seem to have stuff due on Mondays. Last night I tried finishing psych chapt 1 and got tired on the last page. I was texting with a friend and just went to sleep.

Tomorrow I see my therapist. It will be our third meeting. She wants to go over goals for therapy and I have a hard time with setting them. I don’t really know what I want out of therapy. I always seem to come back to this question of goals for therapy or what I want. Then I think I don’t need it but I tend to suffer severe depressions and on/off suicidality.

My sister had some soup for dinner and I joined her. It was good and settled my stomach a little bit. I’ve been having a bit of upset stomach on and off today with my gallbladder hurting me. I also been having CRPS pain in my foot, mostly bone pain. I took a pain med so I am kind of scattered right now. I need to read a few pages of psych. Tomorrow I will figure out how to set up the apps for my courses. For some reason, it didn’t automatically load.

Labor Day 2025

I got up late as I was up most of the night. I was tired but I just couldn’t sleep. I thought about reading but my brain wasn’t too awake. I had a cup of coffee. My sister made a few pumpkin breads and something with zucchini. She also made a pasta salad and some salsa. My other sister was having a BBQ. It was good. I ate too much. I had to have a burger though. That was the last thing I ate. My cousins came over. We let the puppy run the yard. She loved it. I love watching her run around. She looks like a race dog.

I am still feeling kind of low and a little overwhelmed with classes starting tomorrow. I haven’t done anything today and my sister just threw my laundry on my bed so now I got to clear it off again. I have a mountain of clothes. I have no idea what to do with them. I don’t have a dresser to put them away. So frustrating.

Sox game just ended. We won. Now I can concentrate on reading before bed. I need to finish the chapter before tomorrow so I can read the other material. I plan on alternating days of working on my classes. I still need to get my Econ book in order. It’s still in the package.

I saw my nephew and niece today. I was so happy. I haven’t seen him in so long. I miss him so much. The puppy is barking her head off for some reason. She probably sees something. I am so tired. If it wasn’t so late, I would make another cup of coffee. I only had one cup today. I feel so drained. I need to take some miralax because my bowels aren’t moving despite taking senna every day. I think the weight loss drug is making me constipated. I hate not going every day.

I was in a depressive funk most of the day. My cousin’s birthday was today and I was invited to her party but I couldn’t be bothered with getting dressed. It seemed too much. I only was able to do my meds. I never got around to finished my chapter or getting my Econ book set up or brushing my teeth. I was just feeling really low.

My stomach was so so today. I was able to have two cups of coffee. I also had a rice bowl. Then my brother in law called me for dinner. He made jerk chicken. It was OK but salty. I only had one piece as my stomach started to hurt.

Sox had a day game and they won. Duran had his first inside the park homer and I was so happy. I knew he was going to be able to do it. He has so many triples. He just flies around the bases.

Saturday Blog 30082025

I kept dreaming I was in the lab last night. The pneumatic tube station was out of control. Every time I would empty it and return to my seat, it was filled up again. We got crap specimens and while opening one tube, I got sprayed with shit. But for some reason, I wasn’t wearing a shirt so it was on my chest. I kept walking around the lab trying to find alcohol to clean myself. Then this guy shows up and starts a conversation with me like he is all into me. I am like you need to leave. It was so bizarre.

I didn’t get up till my med alarm went off. I didn’t want to get up but I had to take my meds. My sister was up and making noises. My niece came home with the puppy and I guess her ex was over and they started arguing. My sister who can’t mind her business, stepped in. Then my other sister called to see what the fuss was all about. I just wanted to disappear. When things settled down, I got up to have coffee and some breakfast. I wanted pancakes. My stomach barely finished the one cup of coffee. Then I got an upset stomach. I went back to my room and laid down. My head started hurting. The temps are much cooler today. I took some Excedrin.

I brushed my teeth and shaved. Now I just need to shower. I think I will after I write this.

My classes syllabi became available today. I looked it over and I am completely dreading the economics class. The psych class has a shit ton of reading and a 15-20 page research paper as well as a group project. I have no idea how we are going to form a group when it is online. I looked over the list of students in the class and know no one. I just know my neck is going to hurt while reading until I see the eye doctor in Oct. I am having to read from the bottom of glasses on the computer because that middle like for computer use is blurry. I am not sure I can afford new glasses. I wanted to update my sunglasses but regular glasses might be the priority. I will just get them with transition lenses. Last time it only cost me like $100 I think with my insurance. I just hope I don’t have to pay more than that.

Today was the start of college football season. Buckeyes won their first game. I am so happy. Unfortunately, the Pirates are killing my Sox right now. We seem to struggle with teams that are below 500. I don’t know why. They should be easy to win against yet they blow the game. The bullpen hasn’t been very good. Last night the game started good with the rookie and then relief pitching blew the lead and we lost. Sucks! Because every game from now on matters. There is just one more month of games left. We are in the wild card spot but not by much. I don’t think we can make it to the Series but would be nice to try.