midnightdemons7

Long day of walking around

I was sleeping late because I had insomnia last night. My pcp’s nurse called about noon saying they had a cancelation with my pcp and did I want it. I said yes. This forced me to get up and I was not happy about it. I had some coffee and played with the pup who was in a mood not to be dealt with. I let her be.

After my coffee, I decided to walk to the station. It was a cold day but not too cold. I took my time getting there. I left in plenty of time. I didn’t get short of breath or anything so that was good. I just felt tired. I went to Starbucks when I got to North Station. I had my latte with five shot espresso. It was good. Didn’t help the brain fog. I met my doc and we talked a good talk. She wants me to call the places for therapy. Then she examined me. She wanted blood work, which meant doing T levels at a different time. I see her in two weeks, unless the blood shows something.

I met with my DMH worker for an hour. I honestly thought we would meet for a half hour but it turned into an hour. I was tired. I hadn’t had anything to eat. I didn’t know what I want and I still needed to pick up my meds. I walked to the station and then waited for the train back home. Then I waited for the bus to the square. I ended up getting the rice dish I like. I didn’t get home till after 6. I had been out all afternoon. I was beat.

I got a headache. I keep checking to see if my bloodwork is back. It hasn’t come back yet. I tried to drink some water as all I had today was coffee. I only was able to drink a few ounces. I don’t feel that thirsty. I am going to go nap or try and sleep. I don’t care if I wake up in the middle of the night again. I like reading at that hour. It is when I can concentrate pretty good. Why it has to be between 2 and 4am I will never know. I made a note of who to call for tomorrow. If I call one place that will be good enough for me. My DMH worker wants me to have therapy at her place. We’ll see. I will call tomorrow and see if I get anywhere. I just hope I don’t have to redo the intake.

Good thing I like my friends canceled

I have been listening to Life of the show girl on repeat since it came out. I love this album. This has to be one of Taylor’s best. It reminds of reputation, but with swears.

I haven’t been doing well the past few days. I have been in bed, mostly sleeping. I have just been so tired. Yesterday I finally had something decent to eat and drink. I feel a little better today but I am tired. I did some stuff for school but haven’t started the mountain of reading I need to do. I dropped the Econ class because I failed another quiz. I would have stayed in it but the written part of the class isn’t until after P/F/W period and I can’t take a chance of getting a F. It was just causing me too much stress. I finally picked classes for Spring semester. I hate that they changed the designations for classes as it was hard to pick my remaining requirements. I made an appt with advising and hope that the sociology class I can take. I didn’t see anything saying they needed requirements and I already took sociology 101. I think I took another sociology class too, but don’t remember off the top of my head. It was a lot of years ago.

I took a shower because it has been almost two weeks since I last took one. I had some yogurt with my coffee. I need another coffee. Also need to take my recycling down as it’s trash day tomorrow. My bags are piling up. I am slowly clearing my bed still but I am getting there. I just need a burst of energy to finish it, which isn’t happening anytime soon. I just feel so low. I told my doctor but they don’t have any solutions. I see my doc in two weeks and I got bloodwork to be done next week. Last night I cut my nails as they were getting too long. I kept taking off skin when I scratched. Got myself good on my beard.

I woke up with a headache today but it seems to have gone away. I hope I don’t get a migraine. I took my meds early this morning. My vit D pill disappeared on me. Second time this week a pill has played hide and seek with me. I still haven’t found it. Tomorrow I see or at least talk with my DMH worker. I am going to try and stretch out the time we meet. Every two weeks is getting tough with class. She has no clue about trans stuff so I can’t talk to her about those things. She is clueless about what the White House is trying to do with transgender people. Pisses me off. I had a dream about it last night.

I think I am going to have a salad for dinner tonight. I didn’t take out a burger. I need to do a little shopping again. I ate my last yogurt. My sister bought half and half. I didn’t have coffee yesterday because we were out. I am going to see if my other sister will take me to the cheaper grocery store.