midnightdemons7

Indigenous Day 2025

Today is a day of remembrance of the people in America who died by the hands of Europeans and to give importance to the remaining Indigenous people still living here.

I have had a hard past few days. I spent the day in bed all weekend. I just didn’t want to do anything. I wasn’t really feeling good as I had a headache that would not go away. I spent most of today in bed. I only got up to take my quiz and fail it, even though I was looking through the book for answers. I ended up dropping the class. Fuck this stress. I was going to wait until the written part of the class was done but that is after the P/F/W period. Now I can concentrate on my psych class which I totally like better.

Today is a UMB holiday so I don’t have to do school work. I already did thought. I listened to lecture and responded to one more student because I couldn’t remember if I did or not the other day.

I feel really tired lately. I have been sleeping when I have laid down, which is unusual for me. My stomach has been bothering me but I think it is the weight loss drug. I seem to be gaining and losing the same four pounds every week. I am trying to watch what I eat. I had a burger and a yogurt for dinner. I woke up around 2 so I wasn’t really hungry. Last couple of days I just had cereal and that has been my only meal. I also just had one cup of coffee. I am going to see if my cousin can take me to the cheap grocery store because I need half and half. I have had a headache the past two days and now it came back. I think it is a migraine. There has been some rainy days the last few days and tomorrow is supposed to rain too. The pressure is not helping my head. It is cold today and the wind has been through my AC vents. I like it because I can dress warmly.

I don’t have a lot going on this week. I have an appt with my DMH worker Thurs. I might see her as the weather is going to be better. And maybe I can get some Starbucks. I have points I have to use before I lose them. My niece is making beef stew and it smells incredible. I can’t wait to have some.

Wasted fucking day

I woke up in the middle of the night to pee but was able to sort of get back to sleep. My sister was fucking loud when she left for work so I woke up early to pee again. I didn’t want to get up because I was nervous about my appt. I slept for a bit but still got up around 11. I took my meds and I had a shitload of messages. My econ prof went nuts. I had so many notifications some of which we weren’t on yet. I missed the message from my psych prof. For some reason, I get email from my school address sent to my private email and I found it in the delete folder. I thought it was weird I didn’t get a notification but it was the first message after all the stupid econ ones.

I had coffee and then made a sandwich. I played with the dog and took some pictures of her as she was so damn cute. Then I got ready. I was early and waited a half hour for the bus. I got to the hospital at 2 and to the shuttle depot by 215. The shuttle I was to take wasn’t there. I waited. And waited. And waited. I called transportation and the shuttle was delayed. It was nearly a half hour before my appt. There was no way I was going to go across town in a half hour. And I missed my appt. It was nearly 4pm by the time I got to the other hospital area in Boston. I was tired and hungry. I was thankful I bought a water bottle before I got on the train. I took an alternate route home and didn’t get home till 530. I was starving. I had a bowl of cereal. It was my neighbor’s birthday so I went downstairs before going to my room. I knew if I went to my room, I wasn’t going out again. I had fun but I was wicked tired and pissed off that I spent an afternoon stuck.

I just came home now and took my night meds. I have a headache. I won’t be reading Econ tonight. I played with the pup for a bit. She was laying down. The only good news is that I started the book for my econ book assignment and due to the prof restructuring grades, I am at a 47 instead a 27. I am still failing. I am hoping the book part brings my grade up. Because if it doesn’t, I am screwed.