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School work all day

Since I got up this afternoon, I have been doing school work. I did all the things in psych. Now I just got to write the paper for my Econ class for extra credit. I found two articles so that was nice.

I woke up during the night. And then I didn’t get up till my med alarm went off. I was supposed to go grocery shopping today but I didn’t get up. My sister is going to take me tomorrow after work.

I feel depressed. My sox lost the other night and I just can’t seem to get on top of things. I got to send a message to my neuro about my peripheral vision being off. I also got to email my psych prof about the final paper as I don’t think I can turn it into a historical question. I am struggling to do this school work. My concentration has taken a hit. I should have started reading one of the books for Econ but I haven’t. I have a month to read it and then do the paper. This month I have to work on the group project. I got to look up what I signed up to do because I don’t remember. There is a Wikipedia page on the guy so that will help. The professor is into PsychINFO for database searches so will be using that. I was using pubmed before. I like psychINFO because it’s just psych stuff instead of medicine.

I love Taylor’s new album. I don’t have a favorite song yet. Album reminds me of Reputation for some reason. I haven’t heard the news about how well or bad it is doing. I did hear from her page that she is doing some acoustic songs and putting them on CDs on her page. I won’t be getting them. I already paid what I paid and I am not paying more than that.

I am so tired. I should sleep good tonight. I have my psych exam this week which the prof said she will make “fun”. We’ll see how that goes. She said this will be in a discussion format. I hate that. I just hope I do well.

New Taylor album!!!!

I woke up a little after 3am and after I used the bathroom, I immediately went and checked to see if my check came in. It did and I logged on the laptop to download the new album. I was listening to it until the app crashed. It’s not the greatest app and sometimes it uses a lot of battery so it just crashes. I love this new album. I can’t decide what my favorite song is yet. I got to listen to it a few more thousand times.

I fell back to sleep. My sister didn’t go to work. I ordered breakfast because I was starving. I ordered McDs and a coffee. They put too much cream and not enough sugar so I didn’t drink it. I was too lazy to make a cup. I went back to sleep for a few hours. I set my alarm and was going to get up in a few. Turns out I slept and didn’t get up till 1. I had to leave for my eye appt at 1230 because it takes me so damn long to get there. I called a lyft.

I had about twenty minutes before my appt so I browsed the different frames. Then they called me. My vision changed a little bit and she put in a stronger lenses so I can read better on the screen. Only downside is that she thinks my peripheral vision has changed as I couldn’t see her hands below my eyes. I couldn’t even see a shadow of them. I got to email my neuro and pcp on Monday to see what to do. I have a neuro appt but it’s not until the end of Nov and it’s virtual.

I was supposed to meet up with a friend after my appt but she had so many people with her I felt funny meeting up. I figure I would meet up later, after she had dinner. She said she would talk to our mutual friend that she is with. I hope I get to see her. I will be so mad if I don’t.

Minimal day

I was up between 3 and 7 and when my med alarm went off, I did not want to get the fuck up. I stayed in bed for another couple of hours but I had to have coffee. It was cold today and I knew I would be wearing jeans. I love wearing jeans. They are my favorite clothes. The puppy was home today and greeted me every time I went downstairs today. As I was making coffee, she peed. I didn’t like that. I cleaned it up and then had my coffee.

I didn’t feel like going into Boston today so I texted my DMH worker to call me. I sent her a pic of the puppy I took. She looks so big but she really isn’t. She is a medium size dog on the smaller side. I played my game and talked with my friends. My friend is in Boston and she is in Salem with the witches with her friend. I get to see her tomorrow and I am so excited!! I haven’t seen her in years. I got to go to my eye appt and then I see her.

All I have eaten today was a bowl of oatmeal. I am hungry. I think I will make a tuna sandwich if there is a sub roll left. I might have another cup of coffee. Sox are playing tonight and I want to stay up and listen. It’s a win or die game.

My DMH worker is a lovely person but is so clueless about what is going on with being a transgender in the US. I hate bringing up stuff with her because she is so clueless. Like the felon wants the dems to deny health care for trans as part of the budget. That will so affect me.

I have my bottom surgery consult next week. I hope I don’t chicken out of it. I groomed the other day so I am good. It was not the best job but it works. I need to get blood work done in a couple of weeks before I see my pcp again. I was kind of winded today while walking. I got to the bus stop and I was breathing heavy. I don’t know why some days I am ok and others I am short of breath.