How do you stay resilient in hard times? #WPDP

How do you stay resilient in hard times?

I don’t like the word resilient. I think it is overused with people who have trauma. That being said, I think i cope by taking things hour by hour or sometimes minute by minute. I often listen to music and zone out, just staring at the wall, really concentrating on the lyrics. Lately I’ve been doing this because the pain has been so bad I just want to die. I already have a plan of suicide so I can act on it whenever but I try to put it off as a last resort. Music has always helped me to get out the frustrated feelings and hurt.