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I’m watching the game right now so I am going to make this quick. I didn’t do too much today. I slept most of the day. Was not intentional as my little nap took four hours. I was lucky that my crops I planted before my nap didn’t wither.

I have my appointment tomorrow with my psychiatrist. Nothing has changed. My mood still sucks and I still want to die. Pain has been ok until now. It is creeping up there both emotionally and physically.

Because I slept so much I feel kind of groggy. I don’t think I will have too much of a problem going to sleep after the game. I guess I had too much of an afternoon yesterday. I got sick yesterday while having my coffee and had to rush home with the bowels not cooperating with me. I guess it wore more out more than I thought it did. I hate when I sleep all day because sometimes I have trouble falling to sleep at a normal hour. I also didn’t get anything done. I had wanted to go over the Aeschi book again to write up the highlighted sections I had made. I find this book so full of information and it is really packed full. It took me a full week to read it through. At the time the book came out, I was in a suicidal crisis so it helped to read how to get out of it without using the hospital.

My therapist is on vacation next week. I have a full week of no appointment from her. I do have just one medical appointment which I am hoping to keep to find out more about my ankle. I just hope that she agrees with my neurologist that I have CRPS, complex regional pain syndrome and not a mechanical problem with my foot/ankle like my PCP believes. If it was it would have been healed by now with me not staying on it. But with this weekend is any indication, I know that being on my feet or standing for too long will aggravate my ankle/foot.