I was having a good day until I came home after my pdoc appointment. I lifted my laptop and found there was a screw underneath it. No problem, just place it back right? Well in doing so the panel came out with it and when I started it up there was a burning smell. OH SHIT. And of course I didn’t backup my data like I wanted to last night. Something was telling me to do it and I failed to. I feel like a dipshit now. But the good news is that I have use of my old laptop, and my new one is still under warranty. I just hope that it is not a hard drive issue as I could lose my data. The technician I spoke to said it could be the motherboard or the cooling fan. I hope it is. I also hope they don’t have to wipe my hard drive to fix it. I will be so bummed. I have 40 pages of my book that will be lost!! Including the last piece I wrote that caused me to be in a tizzy! I am so pissed. I hope it is not a hard drive issue or my data might be lost. I will have lost my blogs that I wrote from the beginning of August until now. I am so bummed.
I hope my old laptop lasts long enough for my newer laptop to be repaired. Everything that I write from now on will be placed on my portable hard drive and thumb drive as a backup. And the important stuff like my book will be uploaded to dropbox at least once a week. I am glad I don’t have anything else too important on my laptop, like my data research on suicide. That is still safe on my thumb drive. And I haven’t loaded anything new on my bibliography program so those files are safe as well. I so want to try and get the data but I don’t want to start a fire and totally ruin the laptop. I have it shut off so I am hoping there won’t be any issues with it. I wish there was a way to disconnect the battery to be sure but it’s not like my old laptop. I hope maybe they can fix the CD/DVD drive as that has been causing me some issues.
I hate not having access to my files. I am glad I made a backup the beginning of August. That is better than say November! I really am mad at myself for not backing up the files last night. I wouldn’t be freaking out as much.
The only good thing is that I won’t be able to work on my book for a couple of weeks. That will give me a breather and get my head together. It is extremely difficult writing about your past experiences. I think that was why I was having the self-harm urges. I spoke to my psychiatrist today and she wants me to take a break for a while so I guess I will as I don’t have anything to work on except my blog, which I might as well back up on my thumb drive just in case the web crashes…
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