I didn’t think I would blog today as I am supposed to be “off” but I am in an irritated mood. Thanksgiving went well. I didn’t murder any family members or mouth anyone off, though I wanted to very badly. Not so much the murder part, but mouthing off to the two people that were competing for attention tonight. I won’t say who they are as my blog is a selfish one, it is all about ME. LOL. Actually, this blog is the only place I can be me.
I got my stupid menses again. I hate it because I just fucking showered today and now I am a mess and need another one. GGGGGRRRRRRR. I am hoping it stays to just some spotting or I am going to be a wreck. It is weird because I haven’t had the usual wicked down mood before the spotting. I have been in a good mood the past few days, which is also unusual. My psychiatrist thinks it is a good thing, but with me, good things don’t last. And there is usually a downfall.
I got some bad news yesterday that every time I think about it, I start crying. My BFF from high school father passes away suddenly. I have been in shock and don’t know what to do about it. She lives far away from me and there is no way I could go up and see her. Her parents sort of became my own when I was in high school. They cared for me like their own. I will never forget that. We still keep in touch after all this time.
Tonight I also talked with my BFFL. We were only on the phone for like 40 minutes and it felt like hours. It was so great talking to him but we just talked about the past. It’s like we are stuck there for some reason, like that is all we have to talk about. Granted we never reconnected after I moved out of our little town and moved on into adulthood. I can’t really say we have done anything as adults. We just got too busy to get together.
I finally got the editing done for most of my book. I just have the last forty or so pages to do and I will be done. I will have to re-read it over one more time before I think it is ready for someone else to read but it’s getting there.
I am getting worried about my thumb. It has been twitching for some time now and it is now happening more frequently. I don’t know if it has to do with carpel tunnel or not. It doesn’t hurt. But it worries me that I don’t know why it is doing it. My aunt just got diagnosed with Parkinson’s disease. Granted she is eight-nine years young but still, it is significant. The twitching could be any number of things, from too much caffeine to side effects from my medication to overuse from the computer. I am just hoping it’s just a fluke and goes away on its own. The twitching doesn’t last long but when it’s done, my thumb feels fatigued.
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