Not having a good day. I had an extremely long day and all I want to sleep but I am afraid of having these weird dreams I have been having. Some of them I remember, others I don’t. Like there was one where I was back in my hometown and there was an aquarium where my old hangout was. It was more like the petting pool that is at the aquarium where you can touch the fishes and turtles and stuff. All the while I was there, I was supposed to catch a boat but this aquarium was in the way of the gangway. Really weird.
Then today I find out it’s Jason Aldean’s birthday, which is really cool but weird that he is a year younger than I am. The closest cut, which is a song that is a favorite of the artist of the day or a greatest hit by someone years ago, played his song Relentless. I bleared it on the speakers and immediately thought of my therapist and how she is never going to listen to this song because we don’t meet in person, though I am planning on seeing her Tuesday, if conditions are right. Conditions are I wake up early, I feel like going to the next town to get my sister’s car, and also feel like driving 30 miles with no precipitation on the road. I don’t know if I am going to be able to go because Monday is supposed to be a snow storm and the roads might not be clear enough come Tuesday. It usually takes a day after a storm for the roads to be clear. Also, one time when I saw her I went into a snow bank while making a turn. So that is why I hesitate. I was ok and so was the car but it was just scary losing control of the car and having no where to go but a bank of snow. So I will see what the weather will be like and then make my decision. This winter has been really brutal so I am expecting a very hot summer, which I hate more than the cold, frigid temperatures. Heat and I do not get along. I rather be in -10 degrees than 90+ any day.
The most I can do to get my therapist to get this song is to send her the lyrics. Then she will have some idea of what I am talking about. Course the song is mostly about her. I just associate the song with her.
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