Can’t delete numbers from my phone

Can’t delete numbers from my phone

I got a call tonight from my cousin. It came up as my Godfather’s number. He passed away suddenly in 2011 so when the number popped on my phone, I was a little freaked out. But I then realized it was his wife that was actually calling me. We had a good chat. I just miss him so much that I haven’t deleted his contact and I guess since I have his wife under a different name (she has a hyphenated name), it doesn’t come up because B comes before C. Another dear friend of mine passed away more than a few years ago. I still have her contact information in my phone that I haven’t deleted. I don’t know why I am hanging on to these contacts knowing that they are gone. I guess I just want to remember them in someway.

Yesterday was my cousin’s birthday and I was supposed to attend. I couldn’t because I am still on bed rest. I felt really bad about missing it as I love visiting with her. She is a really nice lady. My Godfather was lucky to have her.

I was going through some pictures of another cousin’s wedding. A lot of the people in the pictures are now deceased. It was difficult. I had a picture of my father and I. He looks so different than he does today. He lost a LOT of weight since that picture. I thought about posting the pics on Facebook but didn’t want to stir things up. I just tucked the photos back where I found them. They weren’t what I was looking for in the first place.

I don’t know why I haven’t deleted these people. It’s not like they can have contact with me through the real world anymore. I guess it’s just hard for me to let go of someone I care deeply about, especially when you lose them suddenly. So I still have the contact numbers in my phone and they are probably going to stay there until the end of time. I like to look at the names that I haven’t seen in a while and remember that person. Because that is all that I have left of them.