Sirens

Sirens

This song was the first new song that I heard from Pearl Jam in years. I was not medicated when I heard this. It caused a psychotic reaction that put me in the hospital because my brain kept playing it over and over, changing the lyrics and telling me to die. Now I can listen to it without it having damaging effects on me.

I had an interesting day. I chatted with a blog reader, via email, about various things. It was good to “talk” to her. She is a sweet person. I then worked on my short story, trying to make it longer. I am up to 900 words. I hope to bring it up to 1000 by tomorrow. It’s hard to write because the feelings that I used to write it, is not there anymore. It’s been draining trying to get back into that mindset.

I didn’t have therapy with my therapist this afternoon but she is able to talk to me tonight. I sent her the blog I wrote late last night. I feel like she should be in the loop.

I got my Bluetooth headset to work with my phone and laptop. I am glad because I hate wired headsets. I can walk around my room and not have to be in danger of my laptop or phone dropping to the floor. With the laptop, I found I could walk to my office and still have signal. I was listening to Pandora for most of the day and I didn’t want to stop.

It was snowing most of the day today, though when it stopped the sun came out for a little bit. I was in my room so I didn’t see it. The brightness can usually give me a migraine so I tend to keep my room on the dark side. I hate bright sunny days. It always gives me a headache.

I can’t seem to find the ream of paper that I “stole” from my work. I don’t know if my niece took it because she needed to print something or what. I got to ask my sister. I will need to buy a new ream, though I don’t know when. I also have to buy mailers for my book to be sent out for review. I sent it to the American Association of Suicidology but I never heard back from them and I haven’t seen it posted. I hope they choose my book to review. It would be really cool.

I haven’t heard from my friend Duane since November. I don’t know if I am a bother to him or not so I have not emailed him. I didn’t even send Christmas greetings to him. He sent a harsh email to me and I am still reeling from it. So I just have been leaving him alone. I am hoping he will contact me when he wants. I also haven’t heard from my BFF since August. I think he called me around his birthday and I haven’t heard from him since. I sent him a Christmas card. I didn’t send everyone cards as I didn’t have that many. I just sent people that sent me a card. I wanted to send my friend in Canada one but never got to the post office. Now I can’t send it because she moved. Will save it for next Christmas and just change the address.