in a mood due to lack of sleep

In a mood due to lack of sleep

I woke up in a bad mood this morning. I had a difficult night sleeping due to pain. The left side of my neck is slightly more swollen than the right and hurts. I’ve been taking BT meds and Tylenol to deal with the pain. It isn’t affecting my neck’s range of motion. I am just in pain. I don’t know if it is muscle or something else. I called my pcp and he doesn’t have an opening until the 17th. I want to be seen sooner than that. The other provider in the group doesn’t have an opening until the end of next week so I will most likely have to go to an urgent care center tomorrow or this weekend. I have PT in the morning tomorrow so I can go after that appointment. There used to be an urgent care next to my PT’s office but it closed down. I will have to go to Cambridge as it is close to me and I don’t want to go into Boston.

I had two cups of coffee and some quiche. If I get hungry later I will have some yogurt. Chobani just came out with a really good one. It is raspberry lemonade. It is so good. I bought some more when I bought my half and half.

My uro NP finally put in the new order for my catheters. I should be getting a few more boxes the end of the week or early next week. I got the refill order today. I am glad because two catheters malfunctioned in the new box I opened.

I am so tired. I am waiting for a callback from my doc’s office before going back to bed. I shaved my head today. I need to shower. I will take one later tonight. I kind of nicked the back of my head while shaving. OOPS. I couldn’t see it so I don’t know how bad it was. It bled for a time but finally stopped. I love the bald feel of my head now. I had my haircut yesterday so it was the right length to shave it. I think I look good with my head shaved and having a top of full head of hair.

With my mood being so bad, I am hating the way my body is. Gender dysphoria is hitting me hard today. I just loathe myself so much. I am so tired of being in the wrong body. Sadly, even if I transition, I will still be in the wrong body. I will just be making my appearance change to fit the congruence of being male.

The pain in my neck has become so severe it is making me nauseous. My pcp’s nurse called back. She wants me to go to urgent care so I will go tomorrow after my PT appointment. Hope this is just a bad muscle thing and nothing more serious. I will have my PT look at my neck tomorrow to see if she can see anything major wrong. She probably will tell me it is just stress. Hope that is all it is.

In a mood due to lack of sleep

I woke up in a bad mood this morning. I had a difficult night sleeping due to pain. The left side of my neck is slightly more swollen than the right and hurts. I’ve been taking BT meds and Tylenol to deal with the pain. It isn’t affecting my neck’s range of motion. I am just in pain. I don’t know if it is muscle or something else. I called my pcp and he doesn’t have an opening until the 17th. I want to be seen sooner than that. The other provider in the group doesn’t have an opening until the end of next week so I will most likely have to go to an urgent care center tomorrow or this weekend. I have PT in the morning tomorrow so I can go after that appointment. There used to be an urgent care next to my PT’s office but it closed down. I will have to go to Cambridge as it is close to me and I don’t want to go into Boston.

I had two cups of coffee and some quiche. If I get hungry later I will have some yogurt. Chobani just came out with a really good one. It is raspberry lemonade. It is so good. I bought some more when I bought my half and half.

My uro NP finally put in the new order for my catheters. I should be getting a few more boxes the end of the week or early next week. I got the refill order today. I am glad because two catheters malfunctioned in the new box I opened.

I am so tired. I am waiting for a callback from my doc’s office before going back to bed. I shaved my head today. I need to shower. I will take one later tonight. I kind of nicked the back of my head while shaving. OOPS. I couldn’t see it so I don’t know how bad it was. It bled for a time but finally stopped. I love the bald feel of my head now. I had my haircut yesterday so it was the right length to shave it. I think I look good with my head shaved and having a top of full head of hair.

With my mood being so bad, I am hating the way my body is. Gender dysphoria is hitting me hard today. I just loathe myself so much. I am so tired of being in the wrong body. Sadly, even if I transition, I will still be in the wrong body. I will just be making my appearance change to fit the congruence of being male.

The pain in my neck has become so severe it is making me nauseous. My pcp’s nurse called back. She wants me to go to urgent care so I will go tomorrow after my PT appointment. Hope this is just a bad muscle thing and nothing more serious. I will have my PT look at my neck tomorrow to see if she can see anything major wrong. She probably will tell me it is just stress. Hope that is all it is.

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