Painsomnia is a fucking not fun

I’ve been up most of the night. I’ve had a few hours of sleep here and there but this shoulder pain keeps waking me up. I’m so pissed off because it really isn’t the shoulder but the muscles around it. The muscles in my armpit are tight. They feel like strong on a guitar. I’ve tried putting heat on but I might need to be dry needled.

I read some of my new book Cry of Pain. I like it. It talked about the history of suicide and how it was a crime. People who died by suicide lost their possessions to the king/crown instead of to their next of kin. There were laws in place for it then there were law about attempted suicide where they would be placed either in jail, workhouses, or asylums. Just cruel to those in serious pain. There was no such thing as mental health services in those days. You were just treated as a criminal hence the committed suicide came from. Hope the book gets better after this horrible chapter.

My niece mailed my monitor back. So now we wait for results. Could be mid-March before I see results. I’m not sure it is going to show anything other than tachycardia. I hope there is evidence to help my case that a beta blocker would be what i need. I know it will help the anxiety somewhat like it did before.

My foot/ankle has been acting up for most of the afternoon/evening. It is stressing me out. I sent a message to my therapist about it. I didn’t hear back. I wasn’t expecting one. I am really tired but also in a lot of pain. I’ve been taking the BT meds. It hasn’t helped. Pain is still a 9. We got a lot of snow so I think that is why I am so flared up. I never showered today but did manage to brush my teeth and shave my mustache off. I thought of taking the beard off but I wasn’t in the mood.

any thoughts?

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