Pass off game
I had messaged my neuro to ask if CRPS can be in the bladder and was assured that it cannot. So I am glad that isn’t why I am in pain. The uro I messaged yesterday did say that my urine is clean. No sign of infection so I can take my pain med for the pain. I messaged my pcp and she passed me off to uro for further treatment. I just feel like it is a run around with these doctors. I am so sick of dealing with it. I have been dealing with this shit for 10 years now. I let my pcp know what the uro said and also told them my depression is bad. I didn’t tell them or my psychiatrist that I plan on going to Switzerland for assisted suicide. When I get the money to actually do it, I will.
My TENS unit came today. I haven’t opened it yet. I don’t really feel good today as I woke up with a headache. I feel run down and it is only Tues. I am making progress in clearing my bed off. I just have my “office” to get off my bed. I took most of the recycles off my bed and in my room last night. I have to bring it downstairs tomorrow for trash day. I have a lot of boxes and three bags of recycles.
I reluctantly went to the chronic pain group today. It made me sad as a member started crying over her son who was just diagnosed with colon cancer. I told them I was depressed that my pain is spreading. I didn’t get much support.
I woke up around 1330 and it is now 1600. I am ready for bed again. I am just so damn tired. I had spinach that I made. I had wanted to have it as a salad but it is a few days old and had to make it before it became bad. It was good. Hope it gives me the iron I need. I am trying to stay up but it is difficult. I don’t know why I am so tired but then again, I was up nearly 24 hrs yesterday so that may have something to do with it. I slept through most of the night, only waking up once to use the bathroom. I went back to sleep quickly. I had woken up around 10 to use the bathroom again and to take my meds. My blood pressure is better. I took it yesterday and it was 129/88. My heartrate was in the 90s but I had just come up the stairs so it takes a little while to settle down.
Therapy had given me a new skill called imagery to use. I have been using it on and off most of the time I have been up today. I just keep going to my “happy” place. It is cold today and the draft from the AC is making my room really cold. I just want to go under the blankets. My ankle has been throbbing for the third day in a row. Yesterday it was burning all day. The cold weather hasn’t helped it. Yesterday I woke up to snow. It is the end of March but spring hasn’t been around. I just want weather where I don’t have to wear a jacket, not to hot but not too cold either. Just like 60 or 70 degree weather. Preferably cloudy so I don’t have to deal with the sun. I hate dealing with sunny days. They make me depressed.