No motivation

I slept most of the day. I couldn’t get motivated to attend the suicide research symposium. Going to try and attend the closing session.

I feel really sad and depressed. Met with my psychiatrist and he didn’t have any answers for me. He said he would look into ketamine for me. He asked if I wanted another therapist and I said what would be the point? He said it might be helpful just to talk things over with. I’m not ready for that yet.

My TG doc called me today. My testosterone level was much higher than last time. So she has lowered the dose. I don’t care. Nothing matters to me anymore.