having a bad day

Having a bad day

I was up nearly every hour or two all night. I finally fell asleep between 6 and 8 and had a very weird dream. It was around 9 when I woke up from this dream. I got a text from my pharmacy saying my prescription is ready would you please pick it up. Then I got a phone call from my catheter supply company. They still haven’t received some signature that they need for my secondary insurance to pick up the rest of my order. I have one box left so I need to have some caths shipped to me pretty soon. I sent a message to my uro NP telling her who to contact and what they need. I then went downstairs to make some coffee.

I made some coffee and my mother had just finished putting things back in the lazy suzy that my bro in law fixed last night. As my coffee was ready, she had decided to go back to bed for a bit. My sister came up and asked her what was wrong. Then she came into the kitchen and we talked for a bit. She said that my cousins were over my aunt’s house why not swing by. I said I had a doctor’s appointment. I really didn’t want to swing by anyways because I knew I would get introduced as my mother’s “daughter” while I had a thick mustache and beard. No, thank you. I was not going to be misgendered in front of people I don’t know. I feel funny enough as it is with my body being the way it is.

I went upstairs to sign on for my appointment and while I was logged on waiting to be “seen”, I get a call from my doctor’s office. Something happened in the office requiring security to be called and my doc was shaken up so much she couldn’t see her last two patients of the day. I had to reschedule my appointment for next week. I really hope she is ok.

I went to the pharmacy to pick up my meds and bumped into a former coworker. We chatted for a bit while waiting in line. It was good catching up to her. I then walked home and my back was really cramping and I had to sit down a few doors from my house. I rested for a few minutes before continuing up the hill to my house. I sat on the porch for a few minutes to relax before going up the stairs. I was out of breath and sweaty as it was really hot out. When I went upstairs, I washed my hands and then went to grab a big glass of water. I sucked it down. I then rested in my kitchen as my mother made lunch.

I went upstairs to cool off as it as hot as hell in the kitchen. I am really tired. My ankle pain has been up and down all day. It feels better after I take a breakthrough med but soon as it wears off, I am in hell again. Now I got to wait a week to get my meds adjusted.

While I was waiting to be seen, I looked over the ketamine clinic at the hospital and it looks like a straight forward program. I don’t want the intranasal spray. I want the IV. I told my doctor this to get the paperwork started as he needs to put in the referral for a consultation. If it helps, it helps, if it doesn’t, I still have my plan in a year.