Saturday Blog 02072022

Saturday Blog 02072022

I had a difficult night trying to sleep last night because of fireworks and then a thunderstorm rolled in. I didn’t fall asleep till around 530. I had emptied my bladder and then tried to sleep. Then I had disturbing dreams of people killing people and putting them in a suitcase. It was awful. I was up early as I didn’t want to go back to sleep. I took my meds around 0700. My mother and sisters went out to NH for a birthday party. I pretty much have the house to myself, though my niece and nephew is home. They don’t bother me though.

I was scrolling through Twitter and got triggered. I read how a ten year old girl got pregnant and now has to go through pregnancy. My mother started molesting me at 10. I am not having a good day.

I had two cups of coffee today to try and stay awake. I so want to take a nap. I just had one of my smoothie shakes. They are easy to make but kind of make a mess if you miss the cup. I haven’t mastered emptying the packet. I bought a 96 ct box of what I thought would be house blend coffee. Nope. It is a 96 mixed box of House, Breakfast, Pike, and Columbian, all medium roast so it is my kind of flavor. It was expensive but way cheaper than grocery stores. I saved like $20. I also bought the Spring blend again because I love it iced. My sister has a big container of flavored creamer that I use instead of sugar and half and half.

I haven’t had a bowel movement in a few days. I took Miralax yesterday so I hope I go today. I feel like there is a belt around my waist. It is so uncomfortable. I am cathing every two hours today as I am drinking a lot of fluid. I mostly have been drinking water and that runs through me pretty quick. It is hot again today. The house is a million degrees. I am glad I have the AC in my room or I would be dying.

My bicep has been bothering me all day. I don’t know why. I see the specialist doctor that will use ultrasound to inject cortisone in it on Wed. I hope I don’t freak out and cancel the appointment. I will be taking a cab there as I don’t know how my legs will be. The short walk I had the other day to the pharmacy was rough. My back cramped up so many times. It was awful. I had to sit down on stairs of people’s houses.

Sox are playing tonight. They had an ugly loss yesterday. They lead 4-0 and then the bullpen blew it. I am still mad. They are playing the Cubs in Chicago. I’ll be paying attention if I am not listening to the game.