sleep and stuff

Sleep and stuff

I really didn’t do much yesterday as I was shitting and peeing all day. The shits finally stopped around 1330. I was weak and tired. I tried to keep up with fluids but it was hard. I didn’t want to get up to pee so I just drank enough to swallow my pills. I finally slept through the night. I woke up around 7 to pee and then I took my morning meds. I then put the do not disturb on and went back to sleep. I got up around 1030.

I needed coffee, strong coffee. I had the Columbian blend today. It was good to keep the cobwebs gone. I have the chronic pain group today. I will go to it. I hope it goes ok.

I made appointments for PT. I called the uro dept for an appointment with the PA and wasn’t able to see him until mid Sept. They had made an appointment with the doc for Oct. they called and canceled the appointment with the doc because it would be useless to see him. I still am not taking a medication for the bladder pain and inflammation. I messaged back the PA today to ask if the med he is thinking of is for inflammation and if it is to prescribe it for me. I just hope I don’t have to have a prior auth for it as it is a new medication.

I had texted my former therapist to apologize for the dramatic texts I sent her. She said I was the least dramatic person she knows. I then told her I am sorry for the suicidal texts I sent her. She said there was nothing to be sorry for as she wanted to know rather than to wonder. I really miss her but I never got things done with her. She was a good person to talk to but that was it.

I need to shave my head and face. I might take a shower. I only washed half my body the other day when I had code brown. I just want to make sure I got off all the crap off me. I still have diarrhea. I just went. Ugh. I don’t know what is wrong with my system. I sent a message to my doc because I am feeling weak and tired. Hope I don’t have covid. I have the rapid test. I am scared to take it.

I went to group. It was ok. My pcp got back to me. It was another RN at the clinic, a different one. She told me that diarrhea can last a couple days but if it last more than three to let them know and if I have a fever. I am wicked tired so I don’t think I will be shaving today. I just had a bowl of cereal and my mother was annoying the fuck out of me. She was either burping or moaning or both. Then she started sneezing. Fucking a. I ate fast to get back to my room.

Think I am going to take a nap and hopefully sleep. If not I will read my book.