Saturday Blog 06052023
I was supposed to go to UMB but there is track work going on so shuttle busses are being used. I didn’t feel like dealing so I stayed home. I got up around 10 and had a couple cups of coffee. I made hash browns for breakfast. I thought about making some eggs but I couldn’t be bothered. I had to pick up my meds and it is a really nice day today. I changed to shorts and then grabbed the next bus to the Square. Last night I heard Taylor was coming out with her version of Speak Now so I listened to the album while I was out.
I stopped at Starbucks for a latte. I picked up some more half and half then went to the pharmacy. There wasn’t a line and I was grateful. I would have put through my antidepressant but I need refills on it. I didn’t wear the binder while out and it felt weird. I had to take it off because it was bothering me so much. I couldn’t get comfortable last night while trying to sleep so took it off. My back still cramped up on me.
Grief is still haunting me. My sisters went to the cemetery today and hung a flag at the gravesite. I wish I knew they were going. It has been so rough with her not being close to visit her. I don’t think there is a bus that goes by the cemetery. It would be a walk. I miss her so much. I didn’t think I would miss her so much. I think about her all the time. Yesterday a social worker at MGH called me back about a bereavement group. Group starts June 8th. My therapist and psychiatrist wants me to go so I will attend for a while. I think there is a time limit on the group so it isn’t forever. I am glad because I don’t want something long term.
I am glad I went out today as I just wanted to stay in bed. I still need to do my meds for the week. I have a frozen dinner that I bought. I should have bought burgers while I was out. I got some frozen burgers but no rolls. I also want pizza. I am tempted to get it again. I can eat the whole thing by myself. I haven’t eaten anything beside the hash browns from this morning. I need to make something. I just don’t know what…