I’ve been up since 830 and besides taking my meds and brushing my teeth, I’ve gotten nothing else done. I need a shower and a shave. I also need to pick up my meds. I have a headache and toothache so I don’t want to do anything. I managed to make myself something to eat. I tried napping but soon as I got comfy I had to fucking pee. I just feel so fucking blah.
I have an appt with my therapist tomorrow. I sent her a message the other night about how I can’t seem to answer the question, who am I? I honestly don’t know who I am. I got the question from the book thinking about suicide. He said he was able to answer it but didn’t elaborate. It’s all self-reflection. Not really sure how to answer the question tho. I’ve thought about it for the past three days and can’t come up with anything positive.
I know I should see the dentist for my tooth. The broken baby tooth I had is gone. The tooth next to it is broken and hurts my tongue. It’s been a week since this happened and now the gum is sore. Tooth probably needs to be taken out. The broken part is right on the gumline.
I don’t feel like caring for myself today. I weighed myself for the first time in a couple months and I’ve gained fricken ten pounds. I am not happy. I feel disgusted with myself.
I need to pick up my meds. I haven’t left the house since this weekend. Maybe taking a brief walk will help clear my head some. It’s nice out today.
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