oh I wish these headaches would fuck off

Oh I wish these headaches would fuck off

I slept semi ok through the night. I had some weird work dreams. One of them caused a migraine. I didn’t take anything for it, I just went back to sleep. I didn’t want to get up today. I had a headache that turned into a migraine so I canceled my appointment with my DMH worker. I felt bad doing it but I needed a shower and it was going to take a lot of spoons to take one. I also had to shave my head and trim my beard. I eventually got up at noon. I had the quesadilla that I ordered yesterday and two cups of coffee.

I am so damn tired. I wanted to clear my bed but I just got the recycled off. I haven’t had the energy to do anything else. I tried napping but wasn’t successful. I had ice cream for dinner. I didn’t want anything else. I had to take a gabapentin because I keep getting neuropathy pains in my head every time the cool breeze touches my head. Last night I fell asleep before 7pm and woke up around midnight. I took a trazodone and I think I ended up journaling for bit or read. I don’t really remember. I kept thinking about things to dream about so I wouldn’t be “caught off guard” with emotional stuff.

I bought the new Sugarland album. It’s only four songs. I love Georgia is Yours. I cannot wait to see them Halloween night. I hope these headaches and migraines are gone by then. I just took a triptan as the newer migraine med hasn’t helped. It is going to take a while for the Topamax to build up. It will be at least two weeks before I am at the 100 mg dose daily. I am only on 25mg right now. I go up next week. I hope it doesn’t make me dopey. Classes start Tues. I am wicked nervous the headaches are going to interfere with my concentration. I am trying to muddle through with them but it is so hard when all I want to do is rest my head on my pillow. I am trying to stay up late (by late I mean at least 9pm) but it is hard when your head hurts so much. I am thinking about going to the ED if this cycle of headaches don’t improve.