Author: Midnight Demon

Day spent reading

I spent the day doing my Anthro readings. I also watched an hour long video about the evolution of man from chimps. I just finished the last of the readings for the week. I might read one or two articles on Wed. I have a busy day that day so I am not sure I will read.

I have class tomorrow. I went over the slides last night. I think we are still in chapter one and don’t begin chapter two until Thurs. but I could be wrong. I have been feeling tired most of the day. I woke up around 3 and found it difficult to go back to sleep.

I took a shower today. I had to because I woke up sweating again. I didn’t leave the house today as it was cold and windy. I plan on going to Starbucks early so I can get something to eat. I have been feeling kind of down most of the day. I was anxious last night and it took some doing to get to sleep. I started having flashbacks of when I was in the hospital so I took some Ativan to try and calm down. PTSD can happen any time.

My pcp’s office got back to me. I didn’t have to get more blood drawn so I am glad. I am still traumatized by the 5 sticks I had on Saturday. I thought about my mother today on and off. Yesterday marked me being ten months post op from top surgery. It still bothers me that my surgery is tied with my mother’s death. I still remember that week as a blur. My mother was pretty comatose. I tried to take care of her the best I could but I wasn’t always up for because I was recovering from surgery. It was so hard.

Another day of more bullshit

I slept pretty much ok. I woke up once to use the bathroom and then I was able to get back to sleep. I don’t remember when I woke up as my sister called me, asking if I was going to the brunch for my niece. I didn’t feel like going so I just said no. I got up and it was like 1030. I had to use the bathroom again. I stayed up and took my meds. I made coffee. I wanted Chinese today and needed some stuff so I can make a casserole. I ordered and had lunch. My groceries won’t be delivered until this evening. I don’t need them right away.

I did my med boxes for the week. I was trying to procrastinate doing vocabulary work for my psych class. There were like thirty terms. If I remember half of them by exam time, I will be in good shape. I noticed on the syllabus that exam 2 doesn’t have a date so I sent the professor an email. I am still thinking about the extra credit. I just need to find something to support my idea.

I just had CVS unenroll me in their syncscript service as I can’t be getting medications on their schedule because I have to pay for them. I can’t get one of the doses of Effexor because it is too soon. Ugh. I think I will be ok. I have this week and part of next with enough doses. I am just worried about my migraine med as it is fricken $80. Sucks.

I am having anxiety and I don’t really know why. I just did some physical activity in which I brought up my groceries. I am glad they didn’t substitute the things like they did last time. I am tired and it is only 5pm. My sister just texted me for pizza so more carbs today. Yay! I can’t say no to pizza. It is my Achilles heel.