Category: depression

You’re on your own kid

I have been sneezing all damn fucking day. I had weird dreams and the sneezes forced me out of bed. It was cold out. My room was kind of cold and I guess the wind knocked down the blinds on my AC. I noticed it when I came back to my room after using the bathroom. The temps have been all over the place. One day it’s cold the next it is hot. Not AC hot but still, warm.

After I had my coffee, I did a load in the dishwasher. My sister charged in my room, screaming there was going to be mold if I didn’t do it. There wasn’t going to be mold. Mold doesn’t grow that fast. She is such a damn idiot. It pissed me off. And of course there was a note on the sink saying to do the dishes. She is such a fucking bitch. I emptied the dishwasher, which didn’t have too much stuff in it. But whatever.

I had to do my shot today. I then got my citations done for my paper. I am manually putting them into Endnote as I don’t know how to put them in otherwise. I created a new file just for this class. I only managed to add two citations when my dinner arrived. I have a headache so I will add more tomorrow. I don’t know if I will be meeting up with my group after class. They didn’t respond to the text I sent out. I hate when they don’t respond.

I need to shower. I think I am going to do it before bed. I have no idea where my tshirts are hiding. I just looked and found one shirt so I have something to change into. I don’t know what happened to my Sox PJs. I guess I will have to wear the flannel ones. I am so tired. I may not shower. May do it before I leave the house tomorrow. I have another headache. This makes number 5 this week. I am supposed to take the Ajovy tomorrow. I ordered it but it is out of stock. I hope it is in stock so I can pick it up tomorrow.

Brain fog and headaches

I woke up with a headache and thought coffee would help. I didn’t take anything as it was mild. I wasn’t sure if it was going to be a migraine or not. I wanted to take my exam today so was hoping it would stay mild. I had my coffee and then went to take my exam. The headache got worse but my concentration wasn’t too affected. I took some ibuprofen and turned on my laptop. I had some sinus pressure so took some sinus tablets, too. I don’t know how many “oh fucks” I said during the exam. She always asks the questions in a way you’re not expecting and makes you think. There was an extra credit I couldn’t answer and one three point question I also couldn’t answer. I left both blank. I guessed on the hormones stuff. I had no clue what I was doing. There were only a few answers I was absolutely sure on. I know I messed up on the extra pyramidal system. I couldn’t explain it or the pathway properly. I feel really depressed and hopeless. Then my head got really bad. It felt like a migraine but it wasn’t. I must have rested like three times but I couldn’t sleep. I had an anxiety attack during one of them because of the exam, which didn’t help my headache. I just feel awful.

All day I felt like I am getting a cold. My head hurts so damn bad and I am so damn glad I don’t have to leave the house tomorrow or have to go out. I got brain fog. I sent a message to my psychiatrist. I don’t even remember what I said. Neuro is doing what they can but nothing is really helping. Some of these headaches aren’t migraines and some do become migraines. I never know. I don’t have normal triggers. I am always sensitive to light and sounds can be tricky because it could be my mood that is causing me to be annoyed by them, especially if it is music I don’t like. I hope my psychiatrist responds. I told him I haven’t heard from the therapy place. I might call them tomorrow to see where I am on the list, to make sure I am not on the bottom. I just hope this headache is gone by then. I really don’t know what to do. If I have to start another med, it could take a few weeks to know if it will work. I might ask my neuro if I should give the Ajovy one more try as I have to take it this week or switch to another preventative.

I have another migraine. Started off as a headache. I took the new med about an hour ago. I’ve been trying to study but it’s been hard. I’m not taking the exam as I can’t concentrate. I’ll try tomorrow.