Category: depression

Merry Christmas to all my readers that celebrate. I had a painful day as I didn’t sleep again and the shoulder was just terrible throughout the day. I ended up putting it in a sling after dinner.

I’ve been up since 0600. I didn’t have a good sleep as I was up most of the night with shoulder pain. I got up around 7ish to have coffee and a slice of pumpkin pie. I had to be up early for PT.

At PT, she told me which muscles were torn. They are in my back part of my shoulder. She doesn’t know how severe the tears are as the report didn’t say so surgery could be in my future. It will be three weeks till I know for sure. In the mean time we are just doing gentle stuff around the shoulder. I got a new back exercise to do.

I came home and was hurting. I had another cup of coffee and put on the heat pack on my shoulder. I didn’t have anything to eat as I wasn’t hungry. My sister was going to have steak for dinner so I was holding my appetite for that.

Around 4 I helped my sister prepare dinner. I was in a grumpy mood as my shoulder was still hurting me. The BT meds were wearing off. Turns put the steaks had gone bad so we just had chicken cutlets for supper. It was good. We waited a while chit chatting a bit then we had the custard pie. It was so good. I loved it.

Overall despite the pain it was a good day. My sister yelled at me but I didn’t care. She is a miserable bitch anyway. I got a new hat that my niece gave me. I love it because it’s adjustable. I also don’t have a Sox hat like it so I really love it.

So my shoulder had kept me up all night again. I sleep for about 2 hours before pain wakes me up. Today was pay day so I paid my bills at 0400. There is just 2 I got to pay when my next check comes in. Then I will be set for the month. For dinner I ordered Mexican food. I haven’t had it in so long. I ordered 2 pupusas and only ate one. I saved the other one for later.

I’ve just been in bed all day. I can’t do anything as my arm hurts so bad. I tried putting heat on but that didn’t help. The report came in and I have a few tears. Whether or not that means surgery I don’t know because I don’t see the doc in three weeks. I sent it off to my PT so maybe she know what it will mean.