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A dreary day

There wasn’t thunderstorms like they said there would be, at least not in my area. But it was cloudy for most of the day. It didn’t start raining until the afternoon, after I came home from my appt. I had to take a cab to it because I woke up late. I didn’t want to get up. I didn’t have time for coffee. I just left the house.

The appt went good. My doc said that the cyst was small on my kidney so I just needed an ultrasound to monitor it. She also said she would prescribe me my pain meds that I am taking for surgery. She just needs to let the surgeon know. We discussed a few other things but everything looked good.

After the appt I went grocery shopping. I got cereal and some cottage cheese. If I had a ride home, I probably would have bought more but I had the half and half and milk and a thing of OJ. That was enough to carry home. I also bought some sausage, egg, and cheese biscuits for breakfast. That with the chicken patties should be good. I really want to make my casserole so I can have it for a few days.

I got the call from pre op. I need to be on a clear liquid diet day before surgery. I need to buy some apple juice and more Gatorade. The good news is that I don’t need to stop the weight loss drug. I was worried about restarting it at a high dose. But we are good. I have to be at the hospital at like 545am. Yuck That is going to take some doing. I can continue to drink stuff until two hours before I need to show up. I think I will be peeing all day.

I was hoping to start my studying tonight but I am too tired from my travels. I took a nap so maybe I can stay up a little bit. I have to get my notebook that is downstairs. I will get it in the morning. I plan on doing a couple of hours of studying tomorrow. I am nervous about the final. I don’t think I did too good on the exam last night. There were some hard questions that I didn’t study for. If I get a 60 I will be happy.

I have been feeling down most of the day. I really wasn’t with it when I was meeting with my doctor. I just wanted to go home and be with my puppy. I tried sleeping with the puppy last night but around 1 she decided to leave the bed for the floor so I went up to my room. I had a hard time going to sleep. I kept tossing and turning. I couldn’t get comfortable. And my foot kept getting cold despite me wrapping it in the comforter. I finally took some Ativan. I had heartburn so I had to take some Mylanta too. I forgot to tell my doc about the heartburn I have been having. I swear I will get an ulcer if it continues. The burning is so awful. I have been in such a mood the past few hours. Feel sad. Sox game has no score in the 7^th so far. I don’t think I will ever feel ok again. Just be this sad being.

It was around 54 degrees today and I got really cold. I had to put on a sweatshirt. I needed something heavier than a long sleeve shirt. I don’t know why I got so cold. This was throughout the house, not just in my room. The wind much have been blowing. I hate it. It would be nice if there wasn’t a cold wind every day. I swear it is because of climate change. I don’t ever remember there being this much wind happening.

Short blog today

I woke up early, like 730am and wanted to go out and do stuff. But I felt it was too early so I stayed in bed until 930. I had my coffee and some biscuits. Then I went upstairs and checked the bus schedule. Bus was coming in like 10 mins but I wasn’t ready to get dressed. The next one was in 40 so I decided to take that one.

Except I didn’t. I got the report of my CT scan yesterday and they found something on my spleen and left kidney. I don’t know what they are going to do about it. The spleen thing is benign but the cyst in my kidney doesn’t seem to be. I see my PCP on Thurs so I can talk about it with her. Then I fell asleep for the rest of the afternoon. I didn’t get up till around 6pm. I had something to eat as I was starving.

I had no energy after I slept so I didn’t go to the grocery store. I haven’t studied. I feel like I know what I know and if I don’t, oh well. I feel lousy. I am going to go back to bed. I was going to take a shower but I will tomorrow after therapy.

Exam canceled!

I was in a grumpy mood this morning as I had to be up earlier than planned. I had my coffee and a little something to eat but didn’t overdo it. I had just enough time to call the sub place and pick up the sub and then catch the bus. I made it with a half hour to spare. Luckily they took me early. I had to drink contrast. It tasted lousy. The CT scan was over in minutes. Then I had my sub. I had plenty of time to kill but my concentration wasn’t so great. I was feeling tired. I tried studying but nothing was computing.

Around 3, I left for campus and there were no shuttles so I was an hour and a half early for class. I read my notebook. I also listened to music. I wanted to nap but there was too much commotion going on. I wanted a Hershey bar but the vending machine was broke. I tried napping and then went to the auditorium. They were passing out the exam and bubble sheets. About midway through, the lecturer asked who didn’t have the exam and nearly half the class didn’t have it. So it was canceled for today and rescheduled for Wed. I am so glad.

I went home but there was train delay leaving the station. I also had to pick up my meds. I sort of snoozed on the train. I again tried to get a Hershey bar and the pharmacy didn’t have the bar I wanted. Just a small fucking bar. They just had the one with almonds but I didn’t want that and I wasn’t going to pay $7 for a snack pack. I missed the bus so had to wait. My sister said she made pasta so I told her to save me some. She didn’t tell me it was with chickpeas. Yuck. I passed. I am hungry but I don’t know what I want to eat. I really want a tuna sandwich but I am out of tuna. I plan on going to the grocery store tomorrow. I will need more half and half anyway.

The ex took the puppy and I miss her so much. The house isn’t the same with her gone. I hope he brings her back tomorrow. I walked a lot today as I had to go into the main part of the hospital to get to imaging. My legs are hurting and aching. The pollen count was high today so I have been sniffling most of the day. The post nasal drip has irritated my throat. Did I mention I hate this season?? I don’t have much to do tomorrow except go to the grocery store and study some more.