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Painsomnia night

I was in hell last night with pain and no sleep. I couldn’t get comfortable. I think I finally fell asleep around 6 after I took my morning meds. My nephew moved in last night and Honey did not like it at all. She was barking her head off. We are keeping her in her room. I feel bad but it is better than her barking all the time my nephew moves throughout the house.

I have been sleepy most of the day and my foot flared up. I just took a pain med. I asked my pcp for some more. She gave me some. I was scared I would have to have a conversation with the nurse. But I didn’t. I am so glad. I think I will have a check in tomorrow on how things are going. I am not contacting them. I am tired and hopeless that pain meds are my only option. My bowels are backed up. I thought I would go today but I haven’t yet. I don’t want to take miralax again because I don’t want a blowout.

I wanted a shower today. I got my things ready for it but haven’t made my way to the bathroom with them. Maybe tomorrow. I haven’t eaten today. I am not hungry. I have been making sure I am drinking though. Don’t want to end up in the ED. Tomorrow I have a dentist appt to clean my teeth. I will find out the damage of my teeth then. I hope the cleaning doesn’t hurt though I know the flossing will. My gums always bleed afterwards. I keep having pain on the left side of my teeth where my teeth are broken. I hope I didn’t develop an infection or something. I am kind of scared to go. I wish someone could come with me. If I did develop an infection I hope they don’t give me amoxicillin four time a day. That is hard to manage.

The only other appt this week is my ultrasound. I have therapy in the afternoon. Sandwiched in between are Sox games as they have a doubleheader. I thought I would do some reading tonight but my brain is foggy. I might go to bed after I take my night meds. I am going to have an ensure with it. I had one for breakfast.

Boring day

I got up around 1 as my sister called me to have me check her stove as she couldn’t remember if she shut it off or not. I made my way downstairs to check. It was off. I decided to have coffee when I went back upstairs. Bitch sister had shit all over the kitchen table so I had to move some stuff just to sit down. I had my coffee and an apple bar. I wanted some eggs so I made them. The puppy was on the porch with her parents so I wasn’t going to get bothered. I made a second cup of coffee when she came back in the house and was sniffing my food. I told her to get away. She went back outside with her mom. I made toast with it and then I was full after I finished my coffee.

I came up to my room. I was feeling tired so I napped for a couple of hours. I think the pup woke me up barking. I don’t know what she was barking at. Her daddy was still here but he was going to leave. Maybe that was why she was barking. I don’t know. My niece had already left the house. I checked the Sox score. We won. We are on a 9 game streak. But now we are on the All Star break so will lose momentum. Their next game isn’t until Fri. I hate this week. But hopefully it gives me time to read more. I haven’t read the book since the other night.

My foot is still hurting me. Pain is less than it was yesterday. I had bouts of being suicidal, They didn’t last long. I am still depressed and hopeless. Despite my nap, I am tired. I think I will read a chapter or two and then turn in. I have therapy tomorrow so that will be good.

I didn’t sleep at all last night so I slept this afternoon. Pain kept me up most of the night. I read a few chapters of my book. I like the writer’s style.

I got up around 2 to have something to eat. I made a chicken sandwich. I had my mocha drink with it. I didn’t feel like having coffee. Then I snoozed with the pup. My brother in law interrupted a few times. Made me mad. He gives her treats and a few pats then leaves her.

I am very tired. I didn’t get any deep sleep. I hope i do tonight. I didn’t get anything done today. I will try again tomorrow.