I had a good night’s sleep. I had wanted to really do something last night but I fell asleep last night instead. Dealing with suicidal thoughts all the time is stressful. I try to distract myself the best I can by listening to music and writing when I need to. But sometimes they aren’t enough and I find myself planning. It calms me down to some degree because I have a say over my life and it gives me an escape I could possibly achieve.
I didn’t take a shower for the past two days. I just don’t feel like it though I probably should today. I just get so lazy. I should also change the bedding but that too is a hassle. I have to clean off my bed with the stuff that is on it and then take off the linens and comforter. I hate changing the bed more than any other task. I would rather wash dishes for a week.
I am to meet with my pdoc today. I hope she can provide some answers for me with the “splits”. I am wearing my brace today so that I am not in horrendous pain later today. I tend to do some walking today while I am at the hospital. I can’t help it. Place is huge. But I only have to go to one building today, and that is close to the subway.
The barista today didn’t make my iced coffee right today. She put too much ice and didn’t leave me too much room for cream. I had to dump the delicious coffee out to make room. I then proceeded to make a mess as one of the girls just cleaned the station. So I have a ton of ice and less coffee. Not happy!!
I haven’t read the past few nights. I wanted to last night but decided to watch a movie instead. Sox had a day game so there was nothing else to do last night. I have been losing interest in my Pioneer Trail game. There is just too many missions and asking for things. I know have to go into my other Facebook profiles just to get the stuff I need for this one game because I don’t have enough neighbors to collect the stuff. It’s frustrating.
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