The other day, I was at Starbucks for a long time. I had written something that I thought was good but when I typed it up last night, I found out it was terrible. UGH. I hate when that happens. I don’t think I can complete my short story on darkness. It’s hard to write about it when I don’t feel like that all the time now. I guess I should be thankful for it but I like when I am able to write good stuff while in a dark mood.
I am in pain today. I was emptying the dishwasher and banged my bad leg on it. It caused a nerve pain attack and I had to take some medicine to get it under control. My therapist rescheduled our appointment today so I can get some sleep. I still am having bad sleep and weird dreams. Last night I was dreaming about rats being born and having to fling them to crocodiles so they can be safe…don’t know the meaning of that!!
Last night my father called me to see if I had cancelled his appointment for today. I didn’t cancel it but knew because of the snow, we wouldn’t be there anyway. I also tried to tell him about his lab results but he hung up on me before I could tell him. Frustrated the hell out of me. I don’t know why I bother. And it seems he always has his girlfriend on his mind because he calls me her name. UGH!!! I have yet to meet this woman and I doubt that I will because my father just doesn’t think that way. Not that I really care but he has been seeing her for a while now and you would think that we should have met her by now.
Today’s blustery blizzard has been cancelled. HAHAHA most of the schools have been canceled for nothing. The kids have a day off because the weatherman got it wrong. Idiots. I can’t stand the weathermen. They are always different. Each one has their own view of what the weather is going to be and they are mostly 40% right. It is cold though so I won’t be going out for my latte. Course I couldn’t anyway because I banged up my leg. I might have coffee later. Yes, a cup of Pike coffee sounds delicious!
I have been in a bad mood for most of the day, before I whacked my leg. I was kind of pissed off that I was again up before eight in the morning. I can’t stand waking up that early. So when my therapist texted me to say she had to reschedule, I took a much needed nap.
I feel better now that I had some pain meds on board and had a snooze. Pain isn’t as intense as it was. It is really cold out as I found out when the Chinese food delivery guy came with my lunch. I hope it warms up somewhat tomorrow. I have to go see my PCP for my monthly pain management plan. I haven’t seen him since November because his schedule has been full. I hope he doesn’t give me a hard time. I have been doing okay pain wise for the past month or so. Today I was only in pain because whacked my leg. Not a good thing when you have a nerve injury.
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