I don’t know what to blog today. Today is the same as yesterday, and the day before that, and the day before that. I watched my niece this morning for a little bit. Made her and I some breakfast. Then I had some coffee that I swear was a sleeping pill because I got really sleepy after I drank it. Not the effect it was supposed to have.
I wrapped another book today to be shipped out next week sometime. I am sending out free books to those that want to review my book. I just hope that they keep their end of the deal. One book I forgot to sign so that is being shipped to my cousin. I have two more books to wrap. But my motivation today is out the fricken window. It’s so fricken cold out so I didn’t dare go out. I do have to go out tomorrow. It is supposed to be warmer as it is supposed to rain, not snow. I just hope I make it out of my father’s place before the rain begins. I plan on going in the morning so I don’t have to deal with it, hopefully.
I am trying not to nap but it’s difficult. I am cold and just want to get under the covers to warm up. I might end up doing that after I write this.
Nothing good on the Twitter feed today. Yesterday was a little of everything. I had responded to a segment about diabetes having a new device. I asked what was the point if the diabetic couldn’t afford insulin. I got back that it was a “human rights issue”. WTF does that mean?? It’s not a human right, it’s a health care right! Pharmaceuticals shouldn’t be charging people life saving medicine up the wazoo. And then you wonder why more people end up in the ER due to diabetic complications and are seen as “non compliant” when in fact, they just can’t afford the medicine they are supposed to be taking. I know there are some people who don’t want to give themselves shots every day for the rest of their lives. But people like my mother, who has to take insulin six times a day and it costs her over $200/month, needs the medicine to control her diabetes. She is compliant, granted she doesn’t eat the way she should, but that is another issue. Making insulin affordable should be prioritized among health care doctors and nurses.
I could go on, but that is not what my blog is about. The other night I was reading “Touched With Fire”. I really like this book as it has my favorite passage from Edgar Allan Poe. He really knows what it is like to suffer from a “depression of spirits much as I have never known”. I also found the quote I was looking for about the thousand wounds. I will post it in my favorite quotes, if it is not already there. I think it is by Berloiz. Reading this book is helping me to understand my condition better and also to help ease my suffering a little bit. I am so tired of fighting every day these demons that steal my energy and motivation. I forgot what it was like to have energy and zeal. It has been too long. But I am in a prison of my own making and the weather has helped to isolate me. I am sadly, looking forward to going to my bastard father’s house because it gets me out of the house for a little while. I will have a 45 min or so bus ride to his house that will be my respite and the same coming back home, provided the buses run on time. I really don’t want to be in the cold waiting for the bus more than an hour. It will suck! But that is the gamble I have to take. I wish he would fill his own damn med case. Would save me a hassle and a half.
I’m starting to feel agitated and I don’t know why. I guess just talking about my idiotic father gets me upset. He really drives me and my sisters crazy. My other sister that does his laundry is not going over his house tomorrow. Great. I just hope I don’t have to listen to his damn stories about things I really don’t give a shit about. I just want to fill his med case and leave. Maybe I can borrow my sister’s car so I don’t have to take the bus. But I think she is working tomorrow. Oh well.
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