appointments and such

Appointments and such

I had my MRI this morning. I didn’t want to get out of bed. So I didn’t have time to make coffee before I left. I decided to go to Starbucks instead for my coffee. I also had something to eat while there. I was early for my appointment as I had to wait a half hour before being checked in because of Covid rules. The place ran late so I didn’t get called in till around 11. I didn’t have to have contrast so that was good for my veins but bad for the test. If there is something they aren’t going to know if it is new or not.

My surgeon’s office never called me back. I will call in the morning if I don’t hear anything. I still have the discharge. I have been in a lot of pain today because my bowels were hard and I had to push to get them out. I am so sore. I just took more medication. I am hurting.

I had therapy today. We talked briefly about the gender dysphoria. I told her that I am having a hard time showering because I can’t stand to look at my body. I hate myself. At the end of the session she asked if I wanted a second time this week to be productive and I said no. The session today was a tough one because I was so drained from the MRI and walking around the hospital. I just didn’t have the mental energy to be in session today at all. I also didn’t know what to talk about. I didn’t want to talk about trauma again and she isn’t the type to just throw something out there for me to talk about.

Tomorrow I see my TG doc. I got an annoying reminder call. I don’t know why they called me when I had already confirmed the appointment. Pisses me off. There have been no changes since the dose increase other than my blood level increasing. Thankfully, I haven’t had a break out of acne.

I am not feeling well so I plan on taking my meds early and going to bed. Sox are on the west coast and game isn’t until 10 which I am not going to stay up for tonight. Maybe tomorrow. Hopefully no other player tests positive for Covid between now and then.