PT killed me

PT killed me

I had PT today. I worked on a machine for the first 10 mins and then she took some measurements to see how my shoulder is progressing. It is getting better. Then she dry needled me and my arm is so sore. My intercostals were tight so she massaged them and omg did it hurt. I got to put heat on and drink a lot of water. I would but I have a painful canker on my lip right now. I just put some medicine on it.

I came home and the stuff I ordered from Amazon Fresh came. My niece helped bring it upstairs for me. It is drinks that I bought because I am out of Gatorade. I have no idea what is going on with the lemon lime flavor but I can’t seem to get it. Stop and shop is out of it. And now they got the 28oz bottles. Fuckers. Same price as a 32 oz. I am not happy about it.

I am really tired. I had something to eat when I came home. Leftovers from last night. I also had a cup of coffee to warm up some as I was frozen waiting for the bus. I took a shower this morning. I had to. I stunk so bad because I was sweating most of the night. I don’t know why my room got really hot. I kept taking off the covers. I was too lazy to turn on the ceiling fan. I didn’t sleep too well. I woke up around 0130 to pee and it took a couple of hours for me to get back to sleep. Then I kept having weird dreams and felt like I was waking up every hour or so because of them. I didn’t want to get up this morning but I had a cup of coffee before I showered. I forgot to brush my teeth after the shower but I did do it before I got dressed for PT.

Today is the anniversary of the 13th Amendment being passed so I plan on watching Lincoln tonight. I love this movie so much.

The place where I am hopefully getting top surgery sent me a thing for registration so I did that and it made me brain dead. I was so tired from answering all the questions on my medical history, medications, family history, etc. I still haven’t decided who I am going to have write the letter saying that I am affirming my gender. Weight came up on the forms. I swear to god if BMI is a fucking issue I will just kill myself. I am going to try and lose weight between now and April but I’ve never been successful at reducing my weight on my own. I only lost 20 lbs because I had stopped eating. Without meaning to, I lost two pounds since I last weighed myself. I swear I don’t eat enough calories during the day but because I am sedentary, I don’t burn calories either. The only time I really leave the house is when I have an in-person appointment, usually a doctor or PT. at least once a month I will go to the pharmacy to pick up my meds but I all but a few that are there now. I have transferred most of my meds to mail order because it is cheaper and I don’t have to keep track every month if I need to refill my meds. I get a text from the mail order when my meds need to be refilled.

I just used my fitness pal to calculate the approximate number of calories I consume a day. It is way less than 1500 a day. I have no idea why I am still overweight.

any thoughts?

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