no therapy today

No therapy today

I got a text from my therapist this morning saying that she couldn’t meet with me. We rescheduled for Wed. I went back to bed. I got up around noon with a slight headache. I had coffee and some cookies. I then took a shower. I noticed some irritation that I thought was dried blood under my incision. But I think it is a rash from the binder. I have taken it off and haven’t put it back on. I think I am going to take a break from wearing it today. I will put it on tonight.

I feel really sad today. My headache got worse but seems to be better now that I had some Gatorade and Tylenol. I ordered lunch. I didn’t feel like cooking. That is the problem with buying groceries, you need to cook. I forgot to get cauliflower. I will have to get some the next time I go to the Square. I haven’t brushed my teeth yet. I meant to when I showered but forgot. It is so hard to brush my teeth.

I am not sure what I will be doing today. I need to go to the post office to mail a card. I thought about getting some pizza as a reward. I still might get some. I don’t know. I am indecisive today. The scab on my nipple still hasn’t come off. I thought taking a shower would loosen it but it didn’t. I got most of it off. The left looks better than the right. I am still numb all around my chest. I put the bandage back on where it was a little open but it looks good. Scar looks a little weird and there is some black stuff under the incision line. I think it is just glue from having tape or bandages on for so long.

The Bruins lost last night. I am shocked. I really thought they would have made it to the cup as they have been playing awesome all season. Now I am rooting for the Minnesota Wilds. It is the team my friend likes. I think they are still in the first round. I have no idea how hockey playoffs go as I am not a hockey fan. I just follow baseball and a little pro football. Mostly I watch college football because it is more exciting. But I no longer have cable so I won’t be able to watch games anymore. I listen the ball games on the radio or through the app. I have never listened to a football game before.

I have been thinking about my mother calling me son before she died. I don’t know why it took so long for her to do this. It troubles me. I don’t know why exactly. It was only a short time that she did this. I haven’t been called brother by my sisters. Throughout the wake and funeral, my baby sister referred me as “sibling”. I guess it is better than being called sister.

any thoughts?

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