Pain is such an imposition
I found the meme that is perfect but I am nervous about sending it to my pcp. So I wrote her a letter explaining my CRPS journey as well as my pain med. My pain is not every day but it affects me when it flares up. I don’t need to be around the clock but I do need something to take care of it. Right now I am stuck with distraction and that only gets me so far. I told her I have seen pain psychologists and doctors to no help. I also fear that seeing them in light of what happened last fall might turn me away from opioid therapy. She is a new doc so I made the letter brief which can be looked up in my record but it will take some time.
I am trying to clear my room up a bit. I took out the boxes that were in my room. I didn’t realize I had four of them. I have other boxes but I am saving them for my cousin who needs boxes to ship stuff. I am working on my third cup of coffee today. I need it. I am listening to You’re Losing Me by Taylor. Still hitting me in the feels.
I brushed my teeth today. I need to shower as it has been a few days. I meant to shower yesterday but I was just so damn tired. I didn’t do a damn thing except order a pepperoni pizza. It was the only thing I ate all day. Today I had baked cauliflower and the rest of the pizza. I am starting to lose gas so I thought a cup of coffee might perk me up. I haven’t done anything except take boxes out of my room. I still have recycle on my bed that needs to go in a bag. My right foot is hurting today. PT is going to have fun with it tomorrow. I am not looking forward to it. I am hoping I just need a month of therapy for it.
I am missing my mother today in an awful way. I have wanted to call her at least three times so far today. I feel really sad. Not quite sure what to do with it. I distracted for a while. It seemed to help some.
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