good deed

Good deed

My day started early as I had to empty my bladder at 3am. The puppy was up and wanted some pets. She was wagging her tail and kept putting her face in my hands when I stopped as I was on the toilet. She doesn’t care about privacy. When I was done, I thought she went to the kitchen or her room. I closed the gate and went upstairs only for her to come out of my room. Ugh. I had to go back downstairs, let her out, then back upstairs to my room. Cardio workout at 3am. I wasn’t going back to sleep anytime soon. Then I had a sneeze attack and that sealed the deal.

My sister came in my room about 630 for some ibuprofen. I gave her some, or rather she took like half of my supply. I stayed up and when she left for work, I decided to order breakfast and have coffee. I got a sourdough sandwich with eggs and bacon. It was really good but my appetite still is low so only was able to eat half. The rest I gave to Honey, the puppy. Not the bacon though, just the eggs. Then she went outside before it got too hot.

I decided to get my urine tested today so around 10 I left the house and caught the bus. The lab was pretty busy as there were no seats available. It was very humid outside and my shirt was wet. I waited till a seat became available. I had drank a bottle of Gatorade on the way in so I could pee. I had some urgency but was able to hold it long enough to do the wipes and then pee a little and then catch my urine. After that I went to the two different pharmacies to get my meds.

On my way home, I bumped into one of my neighbors. I asked how she was and she was frantic and very anxious. Her phone wasn’t working (no service) and she couldn’t find the app to give her a ride as it was a new phone. She didn’t know who she switched to she was so upset. I stayed with her trying to figure out a few things and used my phone to have her call her therapist to let her know how she was. I asked what I could do to help her and she said she needed to go to the psych ER at the local hospital. I knew where that was and how to get there. I told her let me put my stuff in my house (they needed to be refrigerated) and then we’ll go.

I got back to her and was sweating. I can only imagine how the heat was affecting her. I don’t know how long she had been outside being anxious, not being able to contact anyone with her phone being out of service. Anyway, I decided to take the Lyft to the hospital as the T would just make her anxiety worse. I went with her and stayed until they called her in. Then I left and caught the bus to the station home. I have a UTI so I stopped by the pharmacy again to pick up the antibiotics. I got to start two meds tomorrow, the antibiotics and the steroids because I still have the fricken headache from hell.

I had dysphoria on the way to the lab. I had “ghost” feelings that I had breasts again but I couldn’t look down and see they were gone. The feelings were so heavy. I felt like I was an imposter. But my neighbor friend called me him or he throughout our time and that helped the dysphoria and the imposter feelings.

I am completely tired but I am in pain. My ankle hurts a lot and I stubbed my toe on that foot so it hurts worse than it did. I wanted to sleep around 8pm but I am in too much pain. I took a trazodone so I hope that helps me sleep when I get to sleep. It has been a very long day.

What’s something you used to worry about but don’t anymore? #WPDP

What’s something you used to worry about but don’t anymore?

Being perfect. Now I just do my best

jumble of stuff

Jumble of stuff

I have been feeling down all day. I have had a headache since last Thurs. I messaged my neuro when I got up today and through my pcp, she got back to me. I will be started on steroids soon as the pharmacy fills it. Unfortunately, they had to close early today for some reason. I hope the prescription will be ready tomorrow. I want to get some ice cream sandwiches when I pick it up.

I wanted to go give a urine sample today but I couldn’t get going. I let the dog on the porch and she was happily chewing her toy I didn’t want to bring her in. By the time she came in, it was getting kind of late and I had no motivation to do anything. I just wanted to rest my head. I wasn’t able to nap though. I was too anxious. I managed to brush my teeth after I had my coffee. I wanted cookies. This is another month where I don’t place an order for groceries. I have $100 left but I need it for books and meds. The professors for my counseling class and history class have not put in their book requirements. I feel like emailing them. I just got a book advance from the bursar’s office so that helps. I don’t know how to use it though.

My CRPS ankle is acting up. It has been bothering most of the week. I hate when my head and ankle hurt at the same time. Ankle is always worse than my head. I sent my therapist a message to see if I can see her Fri.

Sox are winning right now. They are playing the White Sox. They have won like 6 or 7 games straight. They are on a streak again. Just got to keep hoping the skankees lose so we can move up in the wild card.

What’s a quote that perfectly describes your outlook on life? #WPDP

What’s a quote that perfectly describes your outlook on life?

I know in my heart that man is good. That what is right will always eventually triumph. And there’s purpose and worth to each and every life.
–Ronald Reagan