Author: Midnight Demon

Trans remembrance day and other stuff

Today is Trans remembrance day and I want to remember the life of my fellow blogger Ty Miles. He had a mental health blog and sadly took is life a few years ago, for reasons I am not quite sure I will ever know. He was a dear friend who supported NAMI by going on walks and stuff. Hope he continues to rest in peace.

I found out this morning my friend died. He had been declining in health all year and sadly I think he passed alone in a nursing home. I got the call before 7 am so not sure when he passed. He will be missed by all who knew and loved him.

I didn’t sleep all night. I had fallen asleep before 8pm last night and then woke up a little after 1am. I tried to go back to sleep but couldn’t and then pain erupted in my ankle. That took some doing to get it to calm down. I managed a few hours sleep and woke up with a severe headache again made worse by the brightness of the day when I opened my bedroom door. I keep my window blocked from light so I really have no idea if the sun is out or not. I wish there could be a dimmer switch sometimes. I went and took some coffee from my sister. I had a cup and then I brushed my teeth and shaved. It felt good to shave. The bad part was that my back decided I was to be a crooked man today as straightening out was difficult. I just felt stiff. It was a challenge to shave the back of my head.

I checked the bus schedule when I got to my room. I wanted to leave before I got tired again from lack of sleep. I hadn’t eaten anything and by the time I got home, I was feeling a little dizzy. I picked up my meds and one of the pharmacies was a long line. I stood and my back wanted to divorce me. I had to sit when I saw the bench as my hamstrings were killing me. I made something to eat when I got home. It was cold today so the oven took forever to preheat. I had just left the house with a hoodie and was comfortable. My room’s temp had dropped so I had to put on a long sleeve shirt. My bad tooth got irritated by the hot food. I think I now know which tooth needs the root canal.

I am not doing anything else today. I might read for a bit. I might nap too. I don’t have to leave the house again till Turkey day. I have therapy tomorrow and I hope these headaches and post headache crap is done by then. I am really grumpy, mostly because I don’t feel good. My niece and nephew are home. My nephew keeps swearing out loud at his game, then will race downstairs to have a cigarette. I hate that he smokes but it’s his life.

I’ve had a migraine since I woke up around this morning. I thought it went away but around noon my head was going to explode and I’ve been in pain since. Nothing has helped. I’ve tried napping but couldn’t really sleep. It really sucks because for the first time in weeks I had at least 7 hours straight of sleep, then another 4 or 5 hours before getting up sometime after 11.

I never went to pick up my meds. Bus schedule on Sundays suck and I didn’t want to get stuck for an hour at the Square so I didn’t leave the house. My headache is so bad my hair hurts so I haven’t been able to shave. I brushed my teeth, though. Also did my med boxes for the week. I sent a message to my primary to see if she is amenable to going up on the neurontin. What I’m taking doesn’t seem to be affective like it was. Ankle prevented me from resting. I got a knife feeling right in the joint. My left leg has felt cold all day. Don’t know why. It is cool but not cold out and my room is ok. Maybe kind of chilly but I like it that way.

I don’t have plans for tomorrow aside from getting my meds. Might go to Starbucks. I don’t know. I’m running low on coffee. I’m hoping I can steal some from my sister. I have to put in a grocery order this week and an Amazon order. I’ve found the Belvita is cheaper on Amazon than the grocery store. Also will get coffee. That is a must!