midnightdemons7

I had therapy today. I really didn’t have much to talk about. I told her I faced my fear of crowds by going to the game by myself Sat. I had fun. She was happy my anxiety didn’t interfere. She wanted me to talk about it but there was really not much to talk about. Then near the end she asked why I was in therapy. I hate this question. I never have a good answer. She said that there had to be something more than talking. She always wants me to do something more than what I am doing.

After therapy, I ordered lunch. I didn’t like it. I ordered roast beef and it was so rare, I thought it was still mooing. The onion rings were good with the James River BBQ sauce. I wanted to read after but I got sleepy so made a coffee. There are only 3 classes left in the semester. I don’t know if there will be a quiz or not. I really need to read.

I’ve been sleeping most of the day. Yesterday took a lot out of me and my legs are pretty sore. I pretty much stood for about an hour and it killed me. I also lost control of my bladder on the way home. I had to pee bad and couldn’t hold it. The train was so slow in getting me home. I should have gotten off at the hospital and used the bathroom but I didn’t think I would make it.

Sox are playing and are leading right now. I hope my being at Fenway broke the curse. I had so much fun and was sad when the last out was called. I didn’t want to leave the park. I am glad I went. I went by myself and it was good. I thought I was going to have a panic attack with the crowds on the way home but I did ok. There was some panic as the train stopped in between stations and my legs needed a break. It was so awful.

I got a major toothache going on right now. I don’t know why. Might have been the ice cream I ate. I had a turkey sandwich. It was all I wanted. I had 2 Fenway franks yesterday. It was so good. The only sad thing was they had to confiscate my pen knife because it wasn’t allowed. Now I need to buy a new one.