Listening to Buzzkill by Luke Bryan. Something about this song makes me think. I like the tune and melody of this song.
Been hurting the past few days. I took some pills last night, probably a little more than what I should have but I don’t care. I just took two Ativan and I am still waiting for it to make me crash. I just feel so awful inside it is not funny. I tried getting in touch with my therapist but she hasn’t called me back yet.
I want to go to the liquor store and get some beer. I have been looking forward to getting a new beer that tastes like lemonade. It is supposed to be really good. I think I would like that.
Another reason I am in a bad mood is that my bowels are going crazy. I have gone three times today and I feel like more on the way is going to happen. I just don’t want to go out and have an accident. SO I am stuck in the house once again. I have not taken a shower since Sunday. I keep telling myself today I will do it but not if I am shitting all the time. Make that four times and this time it was a race to the bathroom. Got to love CES. I so wanted to go out today but it just isn’t feasible. I hate it when my body strands me home.
I want to order Chinese food but my mother is making chicken wings tonight. I love her chicken wings. I will put a little hot sauce on mine as I want something a little spicy.
I got one more comment for my blog to reach 400. Maybe I will get one tonight. I really feel like I could pull the trigger and go crazy, take all my pills and see what happens. I am so close to that but it will take a long time to finish what I have and then I won’t have any for a month, which won’t be good. I still have to go to Walgreens to pick up a prescription there. I tweeted a direct message to their care center about their pepsi products in the 12 pk. They charge you sixty cents for the deposit but there is no deposit on the cans! I am so pissed that I am being charged for cans I cannot return. I have to place them in the recycle bin instead of getting money for it. Not that I drink a lot of soda or really care, but my mother cares. To her the nickel for the can means something to her.
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Yes, you are sending me comment/feedback on the blog that I wrote, which is Ramblings 38. I have to approve every comment because there is a lot of spam, even though there is a spam catcher every once in a while something for sneakers or viagra will filter through. My latest spam message was about airlines!! LOL
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YEPPERS! CES messes with EVERYTHING! Why would you want beer that tastes like lemonaid~just get lemonaid & add vodka or get some Mikes hard Lemonaid. It comes in bottles. We re=cycle all our pop/beer cans. Hubby doesn’t take them to recycling center very often so was pleasently surprised when he got $134 for his truck load. Of course 1 must have space to store that many cans & a pickup truck to haul them in! You’re more OK than you think for. Don’t know a thing about ‘blogging’! When I reply to this, am I replying to a ‘blog’?
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