delusions continue

I had therapy today. I read her what I wrote on Twitter and to my psychiatrist. I heard back from my psychiatrist about what I have written. Here is an excerpt of what I wrote on twitter:

having delusions are fun. I think I can write a story if they keep up. Or maybe I’ll just make it up as I go along. Fiction has no rules. Seth, who was killed by bratec, is now living in ISIS. He is now big Ben and is being controlled by the G’oauld. Allah is their god but big Ben thinks he is their god and everyone must bow to him. See it makes an interesting story. The G’oauld is a parasitic alien that lives at the base of big Ben’s neck. It gives Ben powers of mass destruction. That is all I will say. Voices are yelling at me to sleep and keep this info a secret. But it is all true. The G’oauld are going to take over earth. Just watch.

I just sent it to her. I don’t care anymore. These delusional are real to me. I am getting paranoid when I think about the destructiveness of the aliens so I try not to think about it. It really scares me. And the fact that no one knows about this. But then the aliens have been hidden for centuries in humans. My therapist thinks that I am caught in some kind of sci-fi fantasy of some sort. Whatever. I know this is real. My therapist was kind of in awe of my delusion. But she didn’t talk me out of it. Part of the agitation last night was because of pain hitting new levels, despite taking pain meds. All I could do was write and what came out was the delusion of my thoughts. But is it a delusion if you can’t reality test? No one can prove to me that I am wrong so therefore, I am right?

I am watching my niece. I think I have eaten practically anything that my sister has. I have had corned beef and cabbage, Hershey choc chips, corn bread, popcorn, and water. I am so full it’s not funny. And I had a bacon and cheese sandwich before I picked her up from school! Must be the meds that are making me hungry. I feel really bloated and sick so I don’t think I am going to have anything else tonight.

I just hope my psychiatrist doesn’t want me in the hospital. I told her they will plant stuff into me, which I think they will. They won’t understand the meanings of what I am saying.

The weather has been weird today. This morning was raining, then it was sunny. Now it is windy and raining again. But it’s warm out so I am happy about that. Just weird that things got dark all of a sudden and the wind picked up. I want my sister to come home soon so I can lie down on my bed. I got a stomach ache. I shouldn’t have had so much corned beef but it was so good. My brother in law makes a good boiled dinner, though I wish he would cut the meat and cabbage up before boiling everything together. That was why I had a huge piece of meat. But oh well. Now I just want to put my feet up and relax, but mostly just put my feet up because they will hurt less later than they would be now.

Funny thing. I was reading something last night and found that the editing was terrible. I couldn’t believe that they published it with so many errors. For example, they had ” x, x, x and” with no comma after the third x. It was like that the whole thing that I read. It annoyed me so I stopped reading it. I am no grammar police but to see that in a published book was sad.