I am having a sleepy day. I wanted to go out but after therapy, I just laid down and rested. I really wanted to sleep but sleep never came. Now I feel so down. I wanted to go to Walgreens to see if they had the new Oreo’s S’Mores, but I didn’t do that either. I just stayed in bed after I found out I had my menses. I knew it was going to happen today and I was expecting it, but even so, it still shocks me when I bleed. It’s just so unnatural to me. I still wonder if I made a fuss when I was younger if things would have been different today. A friend of mine in Australia made a comment on my Facebook status and called me a “princess”. I was so damn hurt by it, I deleted the comment. That is how my day started.
My father called me, wanting to know what time I would by his house tomorrow. I told him and then he told me some stories about going out to Boston and stuff. I didn’t care. I just wanted to get off the phone with him. He annoys me. I am sure tomorrow is going to be fun.
I sent off my Brick Walls story to my psychiatrist. As expected, I didn’t get a response, but she did read it. I have the stats to prove it, well, more that someone did, not necessarily her. She likes my writing so I send it along to her every now and then. I see her next week, early. I also have to finagled the bagel on the time with my therapist. It will depend on what time I get out of my psychiatrist’s appointment. She never runs on time, so I am guessing she will be at least fifteen minutes late. Our appointment usually lasts about half hour. I can either spend a few minutes on the bus with my therapist on the phone or I can find some hide away spot in the hospital to have a session with her. I rather be home in my room.
My back is still aching me. I don’t know what I did to tweak it. Another reason I really haven’t left the house today. I didn’t sleep fairly well last night. I kept on waking up in the wee hours of the morning, again. I tried to fight through and stay in bed so not to wake up. But I still woke up around seven and that was that. I am so tired of not sleeping good. Feeling fatigued all day is a real downer. And after the fiasco I had with coffee yesterday, I wasn’t having any today. I drank too much coffee yesterday and had palpitations and was really hyper. It was not fun.
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