I haven’t slept all night. I managed a couple of hours but my mother is having a closet built so the noise is distracting. I woke up from a bad dream. In the dream I was going into cardiac arrest. Then when I wake up my pcp calls to reschedule my Sept echo appt to tomorrow.
In the middle of the night I sent a message to my therapist and she was like this needs to said in session. So she set up an appt for tomorrow morning. I had wanted to go grocery shopping but now it doesn’t look like it.
I had written in my message to her that I feel like I am incompetent with her and am not enough. I also said that I feel like I am a disappointment. It just feels that way because I am not too engaging in sessions. I am really nervous about meeting in person because I feel like I did something wrong again. I’m sure I will hear about it tomorrow. I just checked the schedule and whomever scheduled picked the wrong therapist with the same last name. I am not happy about this.
I am very tired so this blog is going to be short. I just wanted to write this down because it makes me feel better. Hope I can get another few hours sleep.
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We talked about it. She really didn’t have answers for me only saying that she thinks I think she is my peer and she is not. We worked things out. I’ve stopped texting her.
How did your therapist respond to you after you wrote the message to her and you met her in person?