Difficult night sleeping
I had a difficult night sleeping last night. I was plagued with memories of the past three months and it was troubling because the memories were not real. They were just figments of my imagination but I thought they were real. I eventually settled down and fell asleep around 2am. I didn’t want to get up this morning. I slept until my bladder needed to be emptied. My aunt came over and so I had coffee with her and my mother. It was a good time. My aunt was loud and made jokes about things.
I got a call from the surgeon’s office late afternoon yesterday. I am so fricken excited. I got to return the call tomorrow because the lady isn’t there today. My surgery is going to happen and I cannot fricken wait. I have been looking forward to this surgery since I was thirteen. I can’t believe this is going to finally happen.
I ordered pizza for lunch. My sister wanted me to have pizza for dinner. I passed. I still have half a box left, which will be my lunch tomorrow.
I sent a message to my psychiatrist about the upcoming surgery. I just asked if it is going to be ok for me to undergo anesthesia and not become catatonic again. It was a really freaky experience I don’t want to relive.
I took a shower today. It made me so damn tired. I am still fighting sleep. It will be bed time soon enough. I will be taking my night meds shortly. I will probably listen to someday by Rob Thomas for the millionth time tonight. It is my favorite song and still gives me the feels every time I listen to it. I miss baseball so much.
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