Author: Midnight Demon

Saturday Blog 23042022

I slept but kept waking up every couple of hours. I was in a lot of pain with my shoulder so I had to sit up and move it around a bit before the pain would ease. I just had something to eat and my coffee. I had the Spring blend today. It was fitting as the weather is warm. My mother is freezing. I have to admit the house is a bit cool but it isn’t cold. Has to be her old age.

I’m just going to rest today. I don’t plan on doing anything. I am too tired to do anything. I am glad my therapy appointment on Monday is at 1 and not noon. Gives me more time to sleep. I still have three chapters left in the BCBT book. I will read a chapter later today. I don’t want to do anything but rest right now.

Next door neighbors are playing their music. I don’t know what nationality they are. One Christmas they brought over a flan that was excellent. It was really good.

I have to brush my teeth some time today. I didn’t do it yesterday because I was so out of it. My legs hurt so much today that I don’t think I will be able to shower. I am glad my niece went to the pharmacy for me. She was quick. I now have my diclofenac gel that I can put on my heel that hurts so bad. I hope it helps. I am really constipated. I need to take Miralax but I don’t have a clean cup in my room. I keep meaning to grab one but always seem to forget.

I am dying for pizza so going to order it for dinner. Right now I am going to nap as I am falling asleep. Later my dudes.

Horrible night sleeping

As predicted, I had a bad night sleeping. I couldn’t get comfortable and I was in a lot of pain every where. I took some ibuprofen and Tylenol and when that didn’t work, I used my BT meds. I also used my muscle relaxant to try and get some sleep but it was no use, my muscles were just hurting too bad. Then this morning I shut my phone off only for my mother to call me to go downstairs to help her get her sneakers on for her appointment. I tried to get another hour or so but I didn’t sleep. I just laid there.

As my urine test orders are going to expire next week, I sent a request for it to be renewed and I got the bitch nurse that likes to pass things off. She said I should get it through uro. I said uro wants my pcp to do it otherwise I wouldn’t have sent the message! I just tried to call cardiology for an appointment and had to leave a voicemail as the line was busy. Before I laid down to try and sleep again, I tried the office and got through. I have an appointment with a cardiologist/electrophysiologist May 10^th and it is virtually so I don’t have to go anywhere.

I got up and had some coffee. I made some pancakes, had a yogurt, and some shortbread girl scout cookies. That’s all I wanted to eat. I have to finish up the yogurt today as it expires soon. I really love the Greek Chobani black cherry. It is the better one I think out of the other flavors.

I am still waiting for the pharmacy to fill my meds. It is in process. If I don’t get the text by 1pm I will call them and see what is up. I hope there isn’t a problem filling my ER pain meds because I run out on Sunday. I had to call them to get the ball rolling. I will pick up all my meds tomorrow.

I slept most of the afternoon until my fricken mother woke me up. She wanted me to come down with my phone for some reason. I wasn’t going anywhere. I knew I was going to have a rough night but I didn’t think it was going to be so damn difficult to sleep during the day. I am usually able to sleep, especially when no one is home. I just couldn’t get comfortable. My legs still hurt. My heel is feeling a little better but hurts when I walk on it. My upper body still hurt. Carrying the groceries really did a number on me.

I haven’t done any therapy work and I don’t think I will till tomorrow. I do have to say that this new uro medication combination is working. I haven’t had bladder pain since starting it. I also have been voiding more. It sometimes hurts, especially to get the last drops of urine out of my bladder. But so far it doesn’t look like I have an infection. I am still waiting for the urine culture to come back. It might come back tomorrow. My pain panel came back negative. It didn’t pick up on the medication I take, and that worries me. There was not that many things on the panel. Oh well.

A lot of walking equals a lot of steps

I had slept through most of the night. I woke up around 0630 to pee and wasn’t able to get back to sleep because I had therapy this morning. It was a good session. We went over some of the stuff about the workbook that I am reading as I sent her a message about it. I got the feedback I was looking for.

I then took a shower. I shaved first and that stressed out my back. I had to cut the forest under my arms. I don’t remember the last time I shaved under there but it has obviously been a while. The shower cramped up my back and I had to sit a few times. I swear it took so damn long to finish and then to dry off and get dressed. I was exhausted and I still had to go out. I rested for about an hour before I had to get going. I let my phone charge a bit as it was below 70% and I was going to use the Bluetooth for my music.

My first stop when I got to the hospital was the lab. There was delays on the train so I had 45 mins before I had to be at my appointment for echo. I got out of there just in time. I walked over to the building and it took me a little while to figure out where to go. I finally found the place where I needed to be and checked in. The test took like a half hour and then I was on my way. I navigated the hospital to the exit and when I reached the last building before the subway, I sat down to rest a bit. My legs and foot were screaming. I still had to go to the grocery store to get half and half as I used the last of it. My mother also needed eggs and milk. Eggs were ridiculously priced or had gone up. I paid $5 for 2 dozen rather than $6 for 18.

Walking back to the train station to catch the bus home was hard. I didn’t think I was going to make it. I wish there was someone to pick me up but there was no one. My nephew was at work and my brother in law was still at work. My sister is in Maine for the next few days. I get a break from the sister I live with as she went with her. I made it home only to find I was locked out of the house. Someone had locked the screen door. I had the key for it so opened the door but someone had locked the door to my apartment. I had to call my mother to come down to open it because I wasn’t walking around the house to the back and then going up a spiral staircase to get in the house. My arms are so sore. The fascia on my foot is inflamed. I don’t know what to do about it. I can’t ice it because of the CRPS in my foot. I am trying to stay off it and just take ibuprofen. Tomorrow I have to go to the pharmacy to pick up my meds. I can probably put some diclofenac gel on the bottom of my foot. That might help ease the inflammation. Unfortunately, the tube I have is expired by two years so I don’t think it is good anymore.

I am going to have to shower again tomorrow because of the gel from the echo was all over my chest and when I was giving the urine sample, stupid bladder decided to explode when I inserted the catheter so I got urine on my underwear and me. I changed my underwear but I still need to shower for the gel to get off. I also sweated a lot because it was warm today.

I am glad the back pain I woke up with went away with a BT med. I was in so much pain this morning. No idea what set it off as it was my upper back that was hurting. I took another BT med when I came home for my heel pain. According to my step counter on my phone I walked over 5700 steps. I am so tired. I hope I sleep without any problems tonight. I need sleep!!

I haven’t slept all night. I managed a couple of hours but my mother is having a closet built so the noise is distracting. I woke up from a bad dream. In the dream I was going into cardiac arrest. Then when I wake up my pcp calls to reschedule my Sept echo appt to tomorrow.

In the middle of the night I sent a message to my therapist and she was like this needs to said in session. So she set up an appt for tomorrow morning. I had wanted to go grocery shopping but now it doesn’t look like it.

I had written in my message to her that I feel like I am incompetent with her and am not enough. I also said that I feel like I am a disappointment. It just feels that way because I am not too engaging in sessions. I am really nervous about meeting in person because I feel like I did something wrong again. I’m sure I will hear about it tomorrow. I just checked the schedule and whomever scheduled picked the wrong therapist with the same last name. I am not happy about this.

I am very tired so this blog is going to be short. I just wanted to write this down because it makes me feel better. Hope I can get another few hours sleep.