Author: Midnight Demon

Letters addressed to the fire

I had therapy today. It went ok. I told her about group. She didn’t have much to say on it. We talked about validation and she was upset with my texting again. I get carried away by the moment. I told her I have been sleeping more. She or the system rather, gave me a questionnaire to fill out before session. It was a depression and alcohol screening thing. I hate them. I didn’t have a chance to discuss the BCBT book with her. I am learning a lot from reading it.

After session, I just stayed in bed. Tomorrow I have my last PT session. I think my PT is sick of me. LOL I have been going to her for five months now. Shoulder is still cranky at times but has been better the last couple of days. It still hurts just not as much and usually only when I move it a “wrong” way. I haven’t been doing my exercises because I have been in bed most of the past few days. I don’t want to do anything. Therapist said to do just a few things each day doesn’t have to be much.

It’s been two weeks today since I turned in the Holter monitor. I hope to get a report sometime this week. I am really tired. I hope I sleep without weird fucking dreams again. Damn things have been waking me up all night. I go back to sleep but I wake up with the WTF was that about feeling.

Baseball is back!

Finally the owners and players have agreed on terms and we are have a 162 game season! Spring training has commenced. I couldn’t be happier though I am still wondering how I am going to watch night games. I know west coast games are out as there is no way I am staying up till 1 am or later for them. I don’t have it in me to stay up that late anymore. I am an old man.

I got up around noon today. I brushed my teeth. Made coffee and some toast. Someone has been eating my Kerrygold butter. I found where my sister put my tortilla wraps. On top of the fridge. Yeah cause I would look there. Idiot.

I am feeling tired but a little better than I have been all week. I have some energy. I really need to cash my coins as I don’t have any cash on me and my acct is overdrawn, again. Amazon did some tip thing and sent me over. I wasn’t expecting the charge. I might go to the grocery store today and get some turkey breast so I can make the wraps I want to make. I got the Brie cheese yesterday but there isn’t any turkey left. I also bought baby spinach so I could make salad. I found a new dressing that is fricken awesome. Ranch with avocado. It is really good. I forget who makes it. I want to say Hidden Valley but I could be wrong.

Shoulder has been hurting me for two days now, same spot. I just aggravated it some more when I reached for my water bottle. I had to take a pain med for it. Yesterday I just slept around 4pm. Only time I left the bed was to pee. I hate being this depressed. I am going to try and clean off my bed this weekend so I can change the sheets. Maybe my mood will be better in clean sheets. I will try and move some stuff off today. Even if I move a few things it is better than nothing.