Author: Midnight Demon

I did nothing today. I slept fairly well but I’ve had palpitations this afternoon. Ativan helped ease some of the worry but my heart rate is still in the 100s. I will follow up with the doc tomorrow. I have therapy tomorrow and I don’t want to go. I probably will end up going because I hate arguing with her on why I shouldn’t go.

Nor’Easter Saturday Blog 29012022

It is a blizzard out there. The wind is making my room really cold. I put down the curtains over the AC because the wind was blowing it and I didn’t want the blinds to go down with the curtain. It also blocks some of the cold from getting in. The wind has made a pile of snow on one side of my back porch only. I just hope the snow isn’t heavy because that side of the porch is weak.

I had a pot pie for lunch. I had coffee while it was cooking. I want to go back to sleep because I was up all night. I went to bed around 2100 and woke up around midnight. I went back to sleep around five, had a dream, and woke up around 630 with urge to pee. I emptied my bladder and I have been up since. I tried to take a nap around 1330 but it didn’t happen.

The snow is still coming down. I don’t know how long it is supposed to last. There is a huge accumulation on the weaker side of the porch and I am worried that if the snow is too heavy, there might be a collapse. Trouble is, snow has accumulated in front of the back door so we can’t open it. We would have to around the house to get upstairs to the porch.

I had to put cathing on my med app because I am not getting the urge to pee since taking the urinary pain med. I think whatever was irritating my urethra cleared itself out. I have switched days on the vaginal cream because I still have it leaking out of me. I am not happy about this but if it will help my bladder situation, I am for it. I just have to give it time.

Lazy day

I woke up to pee and take my meds. Then I went back to sleep and stayed in bed till after 1300. I didn’t want to get up but I had to pee again and I was hungry. I wanted Starbucks so I ordered it and a grilled cheese sandwich. I ordered a venti but got a grande, a size smaller than what I ordered. I wasn’t happy. But there was nothing I could do about it. The sandwich was good. I was craving their grilled cheese for a while. I wanted it the other day but the store I was going to go to didn’t have it available.

I tried making an appointment for urodynamic testing but the coordinator is still not available. I left a message for her or him to call me again. This has been going on since the last three weeks. I really don’t want the testing but my NP does so be it.

Last night I used the vaginal estrogen cream for the first time. I thought it would be absorbed by now and it’s not. Fucking messy. I am not happy about it. I am having symptoms of a UTI so took the urinary pain pills. Past hour or so I have been having spasms, pain, and urges to go but my bladder is empty. I took a shower to get the cream off me.

Because I haven’t been active, I haven’t had any palpitations or heart racing episodes today. I haven’t heard from the Holter monitor folks today. Maybe after the snow storm. If I don’t hear anything by Tues, I will call my doc’s office to see what is going on.

I had woken up with my shoulder blade area hurting. I had taken a BT med with my morning meds. My deltoid is tightening up. I can feel it. I don’t know why these muscles hurt so much. The hot shower felt good on my neck. I let the hot water hit my side for a few minutes. It was hard keeping my arm up. Maybe I pulled something while I did that. It’s 71 degrees in my room according to my thermometer but my room feels colder. Going to snow this weekend so I probably am going to have some CRPS pain flare up. Last night the bones in my foot were so bad. I posted give me a reason to stay on twitter and as I was listening to Taylor, her song “Stay Stay Stay” came on. I had to laugh.

I have one bottle of Powerade left. Then I will have to drink water so I have been alternating between the two to try and make it last. I have just taken Powerade with my meds as I don’t like taking them with water. This is because my last grocery order didn’t deliver the Gatorade and Powerade that I ordered. They were out of stock on it. I am not too happy. I can’t go to the store by bus and carry the stuff. Not with my arm being the way that it is. I am not supposed to carry anything heavy with this arm. Even lifting my glass water bottle is heavy for it. PT said it could be four months before I could be ok again. I have been doing the exercises at home while I haven’t been in to see her due to the weather. I got to reschedule my time for the 15^th as I have my pcp appointment in the late morning. It might take me sometime to get to Medford. I also need to get my blood drawn that day for the TG doc. My CBC didn’t look too bad after the blood donation so I won’t say anything to my TG doc when they do the CBC again. I thought the crit was going to be lower than what it was. My PCP sent a message with the lab results. I didn’t know you could do that. I’ve never had a doctor do that before. They usually just sent me a message or provider letter. Oh well. Everything is good so that is the important thing.

Cardiac issues and new pcp

Last week I had some palpitations and I high HR of 156 after I bent down to pick something up and then stood up. I had to lay on my bed for a bit for it to calm down. I attributed it to the new blood pressure med I was taking but now I am not so sure. saw PCP today and she is concerned about the episodes. I have to have a Holter monitor for 14 days to record these events. so far today I have been keeping an eye on my heart rate since I have been home. I am still in the 90s to 110s, goes extremely high if I move fast, walk, go up or even down stairs. doc wants me to keep a log of all that happens and what I am doing. I just hope I don’t end up in the ED. she said that if an episode lasts more than 30 mins I need to go to the ED. My heart rate was a little high at the office but settled down once I was seated for a bit. My BP was high both times they took it but pcp isn’t worried about that so much right now. I had blood work done and all is normal, even my cholesterol.

I bought a new BP monitor as the one I was using was not accurate. also got a pulse ox that was like $20. I will get that tomorrow. I hope the Holter monitor gets here before the storm. I have no idea who is going to call me about it or how to pick it up. I am kind of scared about this. I wish she would have just put me on the beta blocker but she said that would mask what was going on with my heart. She is thinking of putting me on HCT but I fear I will be living in the bathroom if I do. Bad enough I am going every 2-3 hours, less if the urge is present.

I got a headache because I am tired. I have been up since 640. I had set the alarm for 6 and it was a good thing that bladder had to be emptied because otherwise I might have slept through my appointment. It was 7 degrees when I left the house. So fricken cold. Glad I was wearing a mask. It kept my face warm.